Eddison Dee

Welcome our beautiful daughter Eddison Dee.

She came into our lives Friday, August 23 @ 11:04pm, weighing 8 lbs 5 oz, and measuring 19.5 inches.

Here is her story:

That morning my contractions started at 3:45am. I woke up and started to walk around the house as each one came on I would squat and let it go. By 6:00, Tim woke up and I was getting to the point I didn't think I should work. I sent a message to my coworkers and told Tim I would stay home. He had to go in for a few hours and I said I would be okay.

But, before he left he called my mom and had her come stay with me. As the day went on the contractions got worse. By 9:00 we called Tim and told him to come home. Next thing I know your Aunt Micah and Great Nana were here, then by eleven your uncle and grandpa were here.

This whole time I never called our midwife because I was worried it was a false call again. I told everyone I was waiting until my water broke. Then around 11:00, my mom made Tim call her. She was here by one and checked to see if there was any dilation. We were at a 7! I was excited because it meant we were over halfway there.


We started to stay in the bedroom and I would have contractions on the side of the bed. Then around 2:30?... your Aunt Katie came in. She was there to help with the contractions and hold me up as I squatted with them. Later, with advice from your Great Nana and Sis. Kim we moved to the bath tub and while there we finally hit the PUSH phase.

I can't begin to tell you the way the pushing feels. The way I describe it is like a coke bottle being shook up but no way to release the pressure. I was ready to meet you but knew we had a while to go. I decided I did not want to labor in the tub and we moved to the bed.

Your dad was AMAZING. I can't tell you how blessed we are to have him on our team. He sat behind me in the bed, while those weren't working, we tried to do the two chair thing. (Great Nana's idea again). We did that... and some pressure was released ;-)

After this we noted the water bag was still not breaking. We went back to the bed in hopes that with the pressure release and position change it would help you come out. Then it came to decision time. Sis. Kim didn't think the water would break on its own. It would need to be popped. I was so determined I could do it, but the idea of releasing pressure was too great. Your Meme was on the bed beside me and said that I could do it, but Great Nana thinks it best to pop it as well. So the next contraction we popped the water bag. You sure were swimming sister! With each contraction more water came, but the pressure that was gone made each one so much easier and you were on your way down.

By this time, it seemed to hurt to labor leaning back so I decided to try it on all fours. WOW, that was the way we should have started. I remember thinking here you come... with each one I was told hold it as long as possible. In my mind I heard hold it for 17 seconds. I did.

The next thing I remember was hearing your Aunt Micah say, "Push Rina, omg, come on Rina, push." That was the motivation I needed, then I heard someone saying, She has hair...She has Tim's ears." I thought I did it. I am done and can rest, then I heard Sis. Kim say, "Push one more time." I wasn't sure why but I did, then again, "Push." I did it again. Then I was being pushed to my side and you were laid on my chest.

I remember looking down at you and I only thought, this is Eddison. There is her cord. I am holding my baby. We did it. Thank you God. Then things weren't complete. We had to wait to cut the cord, your daddy was so nervous, it was amazing to see. Then you were gone and I was told it is time to push out the placenta. Eddison, I was beyond tired. I only wanted to hold you. I did not want to do anything else.

The first attempt of pushing the placenta out was not as good as we hoped. Then Jordan came and she saw I was in pain and said she wanted to pray for me. At this moment I thought I can do this. I pushed and tried and tried, but nothing seemed to move it.

After 2 hours of trying to get the placenta out Sis. Kim asked if I wanted to have her go get it. At this point I could only say yes. She went for. That pain is not something I will ever forget. It hurt so bad, I pushed Sis. Kim and said, "God and I will get this out."

I was allowed to rest for a moment and able to look at you as you were being weighed and measured. You were a little chunk and I was so excited.

Then came the time to try again. I had to sit on the toilet and as I waited there I kept thinking, God please get this out of me, I want to hold my baby. Finally out it came. The relief I felt at that moment was by far the best. I was finished. I was able to hold you.

Once they put you in my arms it hit me. I was your mommy. I am a mom. I began to cry.

Eddison Dee, no matter what happens in your life I want you to know how much I love you. How much I would do for you, how God was a part of your life before you even hit the air. I want you to know how everyone involved with your birth was there because God knew they needed to be.

I want you to know that your dad was and is my hero for being able to endure and take on the challenge of helping your momma, I want you to know that had he not been there I may not have been able to do it. He was my back bone, my strength, and my comfort.










I want you to know that your Aunts being there was some of the greatest support I have ever had. I was so thankful to have them there. Your Aunt Katie even took photos. Something no one really knew I wanted. Your Aunt Micah was my motivation. I kept thinking to myself the more she says go the more I am willing to go.

Your Meme being there. Well words can't begin to express what that meant to me. She was my comfort through it all. She was able to talk to me in a sense of calm I have never known. I was able to draw peace from her and use her as a guide. She is an amazing woman.

Your Great Nana - although she stayed mostly in the hall - was my spiritual presence. It was as though when I felt I needed something she was able to read my mind and it took place. Your Great Nana is a woman who can move mountains with her faith and I know the whole time she was praying for you.

Sis. Kim Retherford was there to assist in the best of ways. She remained calm and fasted the whole time. There were moments when I heard her pray so quietly that it reminded me of why I chose her, why I was in our bedroom, and why I wanted to have you naturally. She has no idea the impact she had on me. I am so thankful.

Jack, and Pape were there to...I don't have a word for it. They may not have been in the room through it all, or they may not have been there the whole time, but the simple thought of knowing they were there, knowing they were in the next room kept me going. It was as though I was doing it for them.

Jordan was there for the tail end as a way to give me the last push. I am truly thankful she was able to be a part of it. I know God sent her at that moment to give me the last push. I know she was there for a reason.

In all, Eddison you are loved beyond words. I love you so much my child. Grow strong, faithful, healthy, and filled with blessings.

Welcome home.

38 weeks 6 days (39 weeks)

This is what the baby belly looks like at "39" weeks. I say 39 because we found out that our actual due date is not August 31st. It is the 28th. So we are actually in our 39th weeks today.

 

The marks in the photos are from the PUPPS. They itch like crazy, sometimes I want to rip my skin off to just make it stop itching. This honestly is why I am SOOO ready for you to arrive. It will go away once you come into our lives. Granted, I am just ready to hold you. I can't wait to look into your eyes, hold you, kiss you all over, and just be your momma.

 

I am so ready for you to get here Eddison. I keep thinking today is the day and yet you prove me wrong. I have decided to actually let go and let you and God decide when you will come. I intend on working all day today and hopefully that will keep my mind occupied while I wait.

 

Your daddy is ready for you as well. Saturday when you did your trial run he was pacing back and forth. He admitted last night how nervous he was. It has to be the cutest thing ever. Your dad is always so calm and he was so worried, and was taking out cat liter, the trash, making sure the food was stocked, checking on us, etc. I think he is going to be one of the most amazing fathers ever. We are truly two of the luckiest ladies ever.

 

So, Eddison when you are ready I am too. Remember how much we love you and can't wait to meet you.

 

Ready and Waiting

There you are Eddison - We are at 38 weeks and 4 days. I am ready when you are!

 

 

Labor

Eddison, my dear daughter, how you have made my emotions travel from normal to complete and utter confusion.

Saturday, August 17th, you had me along with everyone thinking you were going to arrive. Contractions were getting so strong, I was dilated almost to a 3, and yet you did not arrive. Instead my cervix has closed back to a 1.5 and the contractions have been limited.

To be honest, I feel foolish for thinking you were coming. I, as your momma, should have known if it was or wasn't your time and instead I let my thoughts fall away. Today has been hard for me. We told people you were coming... and nope, you are still in the belly.

I know only you and God have the final decision in it. I pray I can be content and patient and listen to my body and not try to hurry you out.

I know in due time you will be here. Question is... do I work until my water breaks?

PUPPS

Mark another thing of the pregnancy checklist. Momma bear has PUPPS!

PUPPPs, short for pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy is the most common skin rash found in pregnant women. Normally occurring around 35 weeks gestation, PUPPPs tends to only happen to woman during her first pregnancy, and more commonly when she is expecting a boy. PUPPPS has many other names, most commonly is PEP (polymorphic eruption of pregnancy) found in the United Kingdom, late-onset prurigo of pregnancy, toxemic rash of pregnancy and toxic erythema of pregnancy. PUPPPs occurs in 1 out of 200 first-time pregnancies on average, and has extremely notable signs and symptoms.

I am attaching the link (PUPPS)so you can look into it. I tell you what, the ITCHING is awful. I hate it. But, if it goes away then I will carry it along with Eddison. Here are a few photos of what mine looks like.





So you can see both sides. I will post an updated version soon.

This isn't even when it got bad. This was at 38 weeks 2 days.

This was the beginning of the PUPPS - the bumps made me realize they weren't stretch marks. Looks more like heat rash. This was 38 weeks 0 days.

38 Weeks - Only 2 Left

How far long are you? 38 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 26.4 lbs (from 134 to 160.4)

Day I found out and 37 weeks 6 days

Maternity clothes? Yep - brought the delivery gown yesterday too.
Stretch marks? They are there, and there are more as off Thursday.... they ITCH!
Sleep: I have been having contractions that wake me up.... but means you are coming!
Best moment this week: Thursday at work - HUGE contraction and they haven't stopped since. Also, our meeting with Sis. Kim. You are in the right position and that means no back labor!
Have you told family and friends: Yep... all that is left is your middle name - which I so can't wait to share.
Miss Anything? My ability to get out of the car quickly. :)
Movement: Yes, along with contractions.... Eddison is on her way.
Food cravings: Watermelon and waffles.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Only thing is the heartburn, but since the contractions started I am not as hungry.
Have you started to show yet: Yep...she is low low. Nana gives you 2-3 days.
Gender prediction: Baby J - is a baby GIRL!
Labor Signs: The labor contractions are started. Mostly 30 minutes apart and lasting 45-60 seconds long.
Belly Button in or out? Flat, but with a pop out. Hard to explain
Wedding rings on or off? I haven't been wearing them. I figure if they are going to cut a ring off it shouldn't be my most expensive piece of jewelry. So I wear my Celtic ring on my ring finger.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy - anxious - sleepy - nervous - excited.... the emotions are endless at this point! Biggest thing is I am ready. I dislike waiting for the contractions.... but with each one I say thank you.


I am momma - hear me roar!!!!!

Photo Journal

Just a few photos as we get closer to due date - I am so ready to have you in my arms Eddison. When you are ready I will be too. Love you sweet daughter!

37.5 Weeks

My view when I look down.

This was at 37 weeks and 2 days! Amazing what the human body can do.

17 Days

Eddison Dee Jacobson.

There are 17 days until the due date and I will be saying the name out loud to a little person. I am in a whole new element of emotions. I want so badly for her to be here now, then at the same time I would like her to wait as long as possible. I know no matter what it is not up to me when my lovely daughter makes her appearance.

Today is a weird day. I woke up last night to some contractions and cramps, couldn't get comfortable, and today I feel as though I caught a cold. You know, the itchy eyes, stuffy nose, sore feeling? Yep, that is how I feel.

I am so ready to hold you in my arms, but at the same time I am going to miss having you with me 24/7 in my belly. Right now I can feel your every move, I can anticipate your hiccups, you are always there and I can protect you. With you born it is a different story. I don't know how to explain that.

I will still have the same responsibilities but they will be more precise and important. I have had constant "monitoring" from family members and friends asking how you are, how I am, and when you will come.

Eddison, I am speechless. Our 9 months together are about to be over. I am going to change titles from Sabrina to mom. I cant wait.

Joys of Change

 

Looking at this photo makes me realize the miracle I am truly living through. Eddison the fact you have grown so much in the last 30 weeks is a miracle. The simple fact my body is capable of doing this is a miracle. I am truly blessed and thankful to have the opportunity to be your mother.

 

We met with Sis. Kim (the midwife) yesterday. You are still measuring big... about 40 weeks. You are so low she couldn't even feel your head... which is a good thing. You are in go mode! We are so excited to meet you. I keep a constant prayer for your safety during delivery. I pray you come only when you and God decide is time. If I still have 3 weeks then okay. I can do it.

 

We have everything set up and ready to go when you do decide it is time.

 

Eddison I love you so very much. I can't express the way I feel. It only comes out in thanks and a ton of I love you's.

 

See you soon my baby girl. 

37 Weeks - 3 Left!

How far long are you? 37 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 26.2 lbs (from 134 to 160.2)
Maternity clothes? Yes, I have my clothes picked out for the next two weeks - then maternity leave starts!
Stretch marks? They have arrived and I wear them with pride!
Sleep: I keep having HOT flashes that wont let me sleep... these suck.
Best moment this week: Taking your dad out on a date to The Melting Pot for our 5 year "dating" anniversary - getting news of Amanda coming the weekend of the 17th, and finding out another baby is in the making for two amazing people. Contractions starting on Wednesday night......
Have you told family and friends: Yep... all that is left is your middle name - which I so can't wait to share.
Miss Anything? My wardrobe... it is now only about 6 outfits instead of my whole closet.
Movement: Yes, and I think she is moved to the right side now.
Food cravings: Not really - well King Size Carmello and Watermelon!!!!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope - taking it a day at a time.
Have you started to show yet: Yep... I have the waddle now.
Gender prediction: Baby J - is a baby GIRL!
Labor Signs: This week we have started contractions.. EEP!
Belly Button in or out? I would go with FLAT! She could arrive at any moment.
Wedding rings on or off? I had to take the rings off Thursday night. My fingers swelled and were hurting... 
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy - anxious - sleepy - nervous - excited.... the emotions are endless at this point!
Looking forward to: Meeting my little Eddison!

Eddison you gave me a scare this week. I woke up and you were in a ball high near my chest and the lower part of my stomach was flat. I was so scared something had happened. I prayed and waited until you moved. Thank God you were okay.

We are so ready to meet you little one. I love you more than you can imagine.

Contractions

Well momma was having contractions last night. The real ones. (Real as in all lower pelvic, and the feeling of "I gotta poop")

They were about 30-45 minutes apart... but wow a completely different feeling from those Braxton Hick contractions. I think you are going to come sooner than later. Then with what Amanda said, our kit arriving this morning, and everything being in place... I think you are ready to meet us just as we are to meet you.

Also, we got news today that another sweet baby is in the making. I can't say who but I am praying for them non-stop that this baby sticks with us and grows healthy.

Oh Eddison!!! I can't wait. I love you sweet pea.



36 Weeks 3 Days - Look at you grow!

Dreams, Prayers, and a Text

Eddison - there is something you should know about your momma. When she has dreams they tend to be from God. It is something I will tell you more about as you get older.

The point of that statement is because your "Aunts" Amanda and Jessica also have these intuitions that God sends them and with this comes a faith that moves mountains.

To back story a little - your momma had a dream she was there for Owen's birth. Although I didn't think anything of it at the time I shared that dream with Amanda. What do you know - both your dad and I were there for his birth and your mom actually helped with the delivery.

Now to this story - Jessica had a dream that her and Amanda were there for your arrival. That your dad was gone somewhere but they were with me. Then I went into labor and they saw you were a baby girl.

There has been talk about when you will arrive and we even have a poll as to when it will be. Something keeps pulling me to the 17th. I haven't shared that with anyone, but something just keeps me on that date.

So, Amanda sent me a text saying she had been praying about when to come and she keeps getting signs that the weekend of the 17th she needs to be here. I immediately became speechless. There was a RUSH of emotions that I cant explain and then I thought wow... Jessica's dream may just come true after all.

I say this because your Dad will be gone that morning until around 4pm for a funeral for one of his friends Dustin. (I will tell you about him too) So, with the information I have been given, the faith I have to believe in God and his dreams, the fact that I am pulled to the 17th leads me to believe you may arrive the 17th.

God is so amazing in so many ways. This simple text she sent me has sent me into a whirlwind. It has made me that more excited to meet you. It made me go and pray for you, myself, her, your dad, and those who will be in attendance.

If this is to happen I know God will be there the moment the labor starts.

Eddison, I cant wait to meet you. I love you and pray that your birth story will be something you can always look back to when you feel your faith slipping. God is there and always will be. I love you my sweet daughter.

Date Looming

As the due date comes ever closer I am stuck with so many emotions. I am completely in awe that my body has been able to do the things it has, I am sad to think it is almost over, I am anxious to meet this little one I have grown to know so much about. So many emotions.

There are so many things I keep thinking, "I wish I would've done." I am beyond ready for you mentally and physically. Emotionally I am working on. I guess it is the selfishness in me. I want to know your motions, your hiccups, your turns... and with you out in the world I wont feel all of those things.

The date is coming up and I keep thinking this is it. This is the moment that will forever change my life. The moment where I become a mom. The moment Tim becomes a dad. the moment where we become a family.

Trust me on this, you will be the most loved, cherished, and blessed little angel in the world. We are beyond thankful for the 9 months we have had. We are both so ready to embark on the journey of parenthood.

Oh, Eddison. I cant wait to see you. I pray God continues to bless us in this pregnancy, I pray you are delivered safely, and I pray that we can teach you all the right things.

See you soon my sweet darling.

36 Weeks - 9 months - 4 to go

How far long are you? 36 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 26.2 lbs (from 134 to 160.2)
Maternity clothes? Yes, those are barely fitting at the moment. I am in dresses majority of the time.
Stretch marks? They have arrived and I wear them with pride!
Sleep: I wake up almost hourly to go potty... and have been having weird dreams.
Best moment this week: Having your daddy and myself prayed for at church on Sunday. It was exactly what we both needed.
Have you told family and friends: Yep... all that is left is your middle name - which I so can't wait to share.
Miss Anything? Honestly being able to wear all my clothes. I am down to a few shirts and dresses.
Movement: Counted and timed the 10 kicks... she did this in 30 seconds. I would say YES!
Food cravings: Nothing much. - if anything it would be salt.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really. Some of the heartburn pain is making me icky, but all is well.
Have you started to show yet: Yep... I have the waddle now.
Gender prediction: Baby J - is a baby GIRL!
Labor Signs: This week is okay - they are easier to handle now that I know what they are. Tuesday was a BIG one at work... you may show soon.
Belly Button in or out? I would go with FLAT! Almost time to meet her!
Wedding rings on or off? The diamond ring is off but the band is still being worn daily.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy and tired. The tiredness makes me a wee cranky but it normally leaves quickly.
Looking forward to: Meeting you my sweet dear.

It seems since Thursday I have been able to eat bigger meals and for that I am rather excited! I missed those meals. We met with Sis. Kim and she says you are doing great. Measuring a little big still but only weighing at around 5 lbs. Mom and dad are ready for your arrival though.... so when you think it is time you come on out! I love you Ms. Eddison!