Old Wives Tale - Needle Test

There is an old wives tale about taking a needle on string and it predicting your children's gender and how many you will have. See here.

As a believer in randomness I decided to give it a go. When I did it claimed I would have a boy, boy/girl, and boy... the boy/girl never stopped and online that reads as twins. Anywho, this was prior to pregnancy.

So, last night I asked my grandmother to give it a go. She did and it was a boy.

One single little boy.

Umm... she did hers different than me.

Maybe she is wrong and all the dreams I have are right... Yep. That is what I an going to think :).

Anywho, I went home later and decided to try again.

This round was Girl, kinda stopped but didn't, boy, boy. What the heck?

I don't know. I do know I want a healthy child. But.............. I want Dawson to be right (check out the 2nd post for that explanation). I mean I already have a name...  ;-)

In all honesty I think we will have twins. I continue to have dream after dream about two babies. Examples:
1. I go into a room and there are two sets of cribs, and a dresser between them. The kids are in the beds.
2. I look at my belly and see 2 sets of feet protruding out. Then I go to get an u/s and hello two babies.

I never wanted to have twins - but, they are kinda cool. See how awesome my twin and I are?!

 

Needless to say there is no telling. We will probably have an u/s on the 29th. Then we will know. So - let the bets begin. 1 baby, 2 baby, boy, or girl. GO! 

Blood Work/ 5 Weeks

First let me start with we are officially @ week 5 of the pregnancy and above is our 1 month pregnancy photo. The shirt is a maternity shirt that I can't wait to see expand as we grow. :)
*and yes I know I look tired... I am.

And then we have today we had blood work. ICKY. I hate needles and I swear needles hate me as well. We were told to call back in 2 hours for the results and use a code word. Tim said to use "peanut butter" and I said nope, "baby nugget." So that was our key word.

I waited patiently until 10am to call back. POSITIVE results. We are, based on my blood, having a baby. The next step was getting a referral for an OB/GYN. I want a midwife and luckily TriCare covers that. We are going to go to OU Physicians for a natural birth of our little one.

Our first appointment should be Jan 29th. We will be 2 days from 10 weeks. EEP! I am praying for some patience as I wait for that day to come. Should be exciting. It is all becoming so real. No turning back now.

Our midwife's name, as of today, is Leanna Harkess. I am already excited because my Aunt LeAnna was the one who helped deliver me. Kinda cool to think our child and myself would have a small similarity. Some may find it odd to want to have an all natural birth but it is something I have ALWAYS wanted. I can't wait to experience it.

Anywho, Tim's sister and mom still haven't got their announcement card... can't wait until they do. Should be epic. My grandma Pat and Grandpa Dave got theirs over Christmas (did not call Tim and I) but called my mom and dad. I find that a bit odd. But, hey they are old and can do what they want. Tim's brother and sister-in-law sent as a congratulations message. And his other sister called and was super excited about it all. So - majority of the families know. On to the aunts and uncles of my Tenn. family.

Spotting

Freak attack.

I just went to the bathroom and found bright red spotting. What the hell? Pregnancy needs to come with an instruction manual on what to expect. Oh wait, there is that one book.. but seriously?

A friend told me that is is normal and not to freak out, she said I need to take it easy for the night. I am just so afraid of losing my baby. I don't want to lose my baby... what would Tim think, what will he do? Would he still feel the same about me.

This is exactly why I did NOT tell anyone but family. OMG I need to now panic.

Feeling Normal

Yesterday was a weird day for me. Everything seemed to be normal. Sore still, and the random hits of "I WANT TO SLEEP", but I had my first encounter of food aversion. A banana. How the heck I would not want one is beyond me. I love bananas. Yet, I took one bite and almost threw it up immediately. But, I told myself you power through and finish this. Stupid idea. I ended up feeling awful the rest of the day.

Now, today. This is the part that somewhat scares me. I don't want to feel normal. I want to feel pregnant. I want to constantely feel sick, pee all the time, and dose off. Why? Because it means I am pregnant. It means I am carrying my husbands child. It means I haven't lost.

I have yet to feel sick, I have only went to the bathroom twice, I am not super tired, and my stomach feels fine. I don't like it. I actually hate it. Bring on the morning sickness or something. I want to feel the cramps in my stomach, I want to go to the bathroom every 20 minutes. Is that weird or too much to ask?

Anyway, it's only halfway through the day. I keep thinking of those who have lost and this song pops into my mind. "Drop the World" - Warren Barfield. You all are in my prayers.



Side note - we have a name if our little nugget is a girl. EEP! I can't wait to share with the world.

Dirty Little Secret

A co-worker asked me if I feel like I have a dirty little secret. I told her the main thing is I wonder if they can tell. It isn't like I am hiding it, per say, just not shouting it to the world.

I have had over 5 Friends have miscarriages and it is terrifying to think I could lose our baby. It scares me to think that one morning I am no longer a mom. I can't even begin to grasp the way those lovely, beautiful mommas felt when they got the news.

Prior to being pregnant I honestly thought... maybe it is like a distant loved one passing. Sunday I got a HUGE eye opener when yet another lady lost her baby. It hit me like a ton of bricks. It is not just a distant relative, it is a part of you. The child growing in you is a part of you and your significant other. Wow. I pray God puts his arms around all those who have lost.

I told Tim, after we heard about the last one, that I am not going to overreact as a pregnant lady because I am waiting for my period to show. He almost seemed hurt. This is my way of not "getting disappointed" if we end up losing our baby. Yeah right, pretty sure if we do I will still be a complete and utter wreck.

I pray daily, nightly, hourly that this baby makes it. That our baby will make it into the world. I pray that our child grows to a beautiful person. I used to be afraid of the idea of delivering a child. That fears is long gone. My #1 fear is to lose the baby. I do not care if, during labor, I pass. I care that my child makes it.

Oh, God, the fear that us women carry. The pain we can have. Please watch over us all.

The Start of Our Journey.

I started this journal in Word on the 17th. I had a feeling I may be pregnant while on our trip to Washington, D.C. I was always tired while there and my stomach was always cramping. So, here is the journal - (17th - Christmas Day) read it with the knowledge it may have TMI. ;-)

Merry Christmas to you all and get ready for a ride.

12/17/12

Since the 9th of December I have had stomach cramps, back aches, oozing from the area, and soooore breasts. I also have crazy dreams that say I am pregnant, etc. I am due to start on the 19^th of this month and will test on the 22^nd unless the big red comes.

Sometimes I am nervous about the whole thing, others I can’t WAIT to tell Tim we are going to be parents. I am starting the log now so that when we have a child he/she knows how much we went through. Maybe it is because I saw this on a commercial but I think it will be awesome. Here is a photo of the day I think we conceived. I will write more tomorrow. And again Wednesday, 12/19/12!

 

 

12/18/12

Last night I decided to test. It said "Not Pregnant". I guess we wait to see if the dreaded red shows on Wed. Although, there was a moment last night that I am simply in awe of…my nephew, Dawson, was looking at me and said something (I couldn’t understand) then he said it again. He pointed to my tummy and said, “In there.” I said, “Yes, the cookie I ate?” Then he says, “No, baby sister in there.” I said, “What?” and again he said, “Another sister in there.” Then he went and told my dad that there was another baby in my tummy.

I almost cried. Here I was about to lose my mind because I had taken a test that said negative. Yet, the innocence of my nephew said there was a baby in there. Does he know something I don’t? Is there a sixth sense that children have? I pray that maybe that is true. I notice with each passing month that is one of the things I want more than anything. 

Granted, about 2 months ago all I wanted was a 6 pack. I have let go of that possibility to prepare my body for pregnancy. I want a child. I want Tim’s child. I want a family. We shall see what Wednesday holds.

p.m. – I found a forum to chat with people. Wow it is great to share what I am freaking out about. Seems I may have tested prematurely. I guess we shall wait to see if AF (Aunt Flow) shows up this week. EEK!

12/19/12

 

I decided to test this morning… no idea why I decided to. It was a First Response test so I had to wait to see if two lines would appear. I peed, I waited, nothing.

I got dressed and decided to look at it again before I left for work. There was a faint pink line. I kept staring, putting it down, and staring again. Then I woke Tim up to look at the stick to see if he saw it too. He did. I will test again tomorrow morning.

Today I have a constant nauseous feeling, my boobs are super sore, and I am sleepy. Maybe, just maybe I am. If we did get pregnant on 12/6-8/12 the tentative due date will be 8/31-9/2

 

12 DPO                  6:40 AM              WEIGHT: 134.2

 

 

12/20/12

Tested this morning, within 2 minutes a PREGNANT showed up. I almost lost it. I haven’t told Tim because I want it to be a Christmas surprise. I immediately looked at my tummy and said, “hello baby nugget.” Dawson was right. WOW – we are expecting. Looks like end of Aug. early Sept. we will have a baby Jacobson. EEP!

I had to lie to Tim and tell him I started today. IT will be so hard to not tell him.  Here is my expression and the test!

Also, I took photos of my stomach. I plan on walking/running every night, but I know the whole flat tummy thing is gone. So, here is the glory of the tummy the day I found out.

 





 

12/21/12

I told Tim last night. Took him to Alfredo’s Mexican and handed him a card with an envelope that said: "TO: Daddy".

On the front of the card it said, "Merry Christmas", inside said... "and a Happy New Year". I wrote under that…. "Full of dirty diapers, burp rags, and late nights." Then a photo card that said, "Merry Christmas from the Jacobson’s +1" with 2 photos of us and 2 photos of the test… I made extra copies to give to our families for Christmas.

 

When Tim got the card it took him a minute to figure out what was going on. He said what is this… Then he was all excited about it. We both are calling it “baby nugget.” I scheduled a blood test for Friday the 28^th to double check and then see what our options are for midwives, etc.

Can’t wait to get things started J

Here is what happened today I have felt tired and nauseous most of the day and after I eat anything. Today we sent out the cards to Tim's family and my grandparents. Hope they get them by Christmas :) It is real! I pray we maintain & are blessed with a happy baby. I had to pass up wine at Brook's bach party and her sister asked why so I told her and her friend Lindsey. They were so sweet about it all. I told because I didn't want them to think I was rude. The last person I shared the news with was my cousin, Beth. Oops! I still feel light cramps on occasion.

12/22/12

Today I have been tired, again, and dizzy. I am also itchy. Everywhere. I ended up sharing our news with our wedding photographer at Brook's wedding. Kristina & Same know. Kristina said it is the Boudoir book. haha I also shared with Brook because she was a little freaked out about the whole getting married. It is scary but look - you can get a baby :)We,well me, are probably going to blabber to the family tomorrow at the Dirty Santa.

I am still having slight cramps on the right side. Some to the point I have to stop moving. Also, when I stretch tall it feels sore. Like I have done a ton of crunches...

 

Apparently everyone was asking Tim if I was pregnant that night. I knew a few tried to get me to drink but I told them I had no cash on hand, and I was working. While Tim was telling them I was going to be the DD. Way to not share babe. :)

 

12/23/12

I woke up this morning to make my shirts... Turned out well huh? I am not sure if we are sharing the news but I wanted to be ready just in case.

 

My nipples are starting to turn a dark brown nearest my skin. They are still so sore that I can't let Tim get near them. My sex drive is also a wee bit depleted. Partially because I am afraid it would hurt the poppy seed, baby nugget. I sure have crazy dreams too. Last night I was clenching and grinding my teeth so hard Tim had to wake me up; twice. Also, when I go to the bathroom - no matter how much water I have - it is a golden yellow. I don't know why.

I took a pee test before we headed to the Dirty Santa. Again it said PREGNANT. (That makes 3 tests)So, we left to head to my parents. When we got there it was just my mom and dad. As we are walking in Tim says hey, let's just tell them. I was scared. I honestly wasn't sure if they would be too excited since Kora arrived a month ago.

 

 

I handed the card to my Dad - he looked at the front and didn't say anything (it said Grandma Kathy, Grandpa Ed) then he opened it and said aw, a card with a white wrench haha. Then he showed my mom and she just looked at it for a minute and still didn't quite grasp what was going on. Then I said read it. (Merry Christmas from the Jacobson's +1) and she goes, "Oh, I knew it" My dad on the other hand. Did the whole arm pump and then cried. He was sooo happy. It had me crying. Then my mom said I am so happy this is the way to do it. :) (I wish we had recorded his reaction)

Next in line was Jack and Micah. They went to Micah's house so Tim and I went over with the cards. We handed it to them both (Aunt Micah & Uncle Jack) and Jack didn't even open it and said Uncle... Uncle... Congratulations. Micah still hadn't caught the jist. Then she goes oh wow Congrats. Are you scared? I would be. ;-)

Now... Katie and the Longest family. We had to wait for them to arrive and in that time my Aunt LeAnna found out because my mom was grinning from ear to ear. Once they arrived we had them first go into the study and handed the boys their gifts and I let Katie open Kora's and handed Josh the card. Katie got the Kora shirt opened (Cousins) and then screamed and was jumping up and down. Josh later told me he thought I had messed the card up cause it said Aunt Katie and Uncle Josh and we are the aunts and uncles, then he told us congrats. We then led the boys, with their shirts on, into the living room with all the cousins and aunts and uncles. They stood for a minute then Hello - they got it. Preston took another minute and then goes, "You're pregnant!!!! - Congrats!"

Soon after Janiece, Beth, & Joe showed. I had Dawson in my arms and told him to say hi to Janiece.. she read the shirt and was like omg, you are pregnant. I said yeah. She teared up hugged me and then told me she had chills from that. She said she was so excited for us. ;-) I can't wait to bring a child into the world!

 

This is my mom, me, and my niece Kora, after everyone found out.

12/24/12
 

I am still sore, and my lower back seems to be hurting quite a bit. I am tired, but not to the point I was in Washington. Which I think is a good thing. We are heading out to my parents for Christmas gift exchange.

We are back. Nothing exciting happened, just like normal. I guess today was the most normal I have felt since Thursday. Almost a little sad.

 

12/25/12
 

We stayed home and inside all day, with the fire going and movies to watch. The snow finally came in. It was not anywhere near the 8-12 inches, but still pretty. Haven't heard from Tim's family or my Dad's side in Tennessee. So maybe tomorrow.
As for feeling pregnant - well it all seems normal. I keep waiting to see the big red show up. I almost can't believe it. We will have a baby by the time I turn 26. Lord willing that is. I am so afraid to post to Facebook because of all the miscarriages I have heard about. Family, friends, and new friends. I don't know how I would handle having to share that news. So for now, it is only family knowing. March 3, 2013 will be our day to announce. Happy 1 year and hello baby Jacobson.

 

Merry Christmas

The Jacobson's are having a baby!