Yesterday was a weird day for me. Everything seemed to be normal. Sore still, and the random hits of "I WANT TO SLEEP", but I had my first encounter of food aversion. A banana. How the heck I would not want one is beyond me. I love bananas. Yet, I took one bite and almost threw it up immediately. But, I told myself you power through and finish this. Stupid idea. I ended up feeling awful the rest of the day.
Now, today. This is the part that somewhat scares me. I don't want to feel normal. I want to feel pregnant. I want to constantely feel sick, pee all the time, and dose off. Why? Because it means I am pregnant. It means I am carrying my husbands child. It means I haven't lost.
I have yet to feel sick, I have only went to the bathroom twice, I am not super tired, and my stomach feels fine. I don't like it. I actually hate it. Bring on the morning sickness or something. I want to feel the cramps in my stomach, I want to go to the bathroom every 20 minutes. Is that weird or too much to ask?
Anyway, it's only halfway through the day. I keep thinking of those who have lost and this song pops into my mind. "Drop the World" - Warren Barfield. You all are in my prayers.
Side note - we have a name if our little nugget is a girl. EEP! I can't wait to share with the world.
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