Some Updates

This smile makes everything worth it.

It seems like so many things have taken place in 4 days. Momma had a melt down and had to leave the house. You stayed with daddy for about 30 minutes. I was just overwhelmed with the struggles of trying to juggle everything. It was not that I loved you less, I loved you more. That is why I was smart enough to walk away. I was so tired and wore out from the day and your daddy was around to help with things, and you slept. You slept all day. I thought I swear Tim this is not how our days go. she is normally awake and we play, we do so many things. He never thought that, but it was what momma's brain told her.

If I would have stayed momma and daddy would probably have butted heads. Instead I got to take a break and while I was away - you exploded. You pooped so much daddy had to give you a bath. He said he didn't know where anything was. Today, we both decided it was a good idea to give daddy some time alone with you so he would know where and how to do things.

Other upbeat things. You have had a bottle a few times now. I cried the first one. It is hard to watch you eat from something other than my breast. I know I have to get used to it. The thing that made it worth while was 1. knowing it was still my milk 2. knowing your daddy would get to experience the same thing I get to. Meme also got to feed you. She was beyond excited and impressed with your ability to suck so hard.


Also, September 28th @ 11:04am you had another cousin. Evelyn Marie Olney was born. She is so cute. Complete opposite of you. Dark hair, dark eyes, and dark skin. She is beautiful though. We love the thought you both were born at 11:04, just she is a morning baby and you are a night owl. I cant wait for you both to meet. You now have 4 cousins and one on the way.


I made this little collage to put here so we would be able to show you who they are. I made a post a while back, but now there is a photo of Evelyn. Uncle Nick and Aunt Crea are 15 weeks pregnant now... so we have a little while to wait for the arrival of your newest cousin.

Anywho, it has been a great 5+ weeks. I can only imagine what the next 50 years will have in store. I love you so much sweet girl.

A Month of Growing

So - you are now a month old. Well 4 weeks and 6 days in this photo. I am so beyond impressed with the things you can do. You hold your head up, you roll to your side, you found your thumb, you make bubbles with your mouth... the list goes on.

Your bubble making abilities.

When you found your thumb!

I am beyond blessed to be your mother. I continue to find out more about your birth story and with each piece of information I get the more I believe you were a miracle baby. I found out you were actually blue when you came out. There was a possibility had your arm not kept the cord from coming around your neck you would have been a still born baby. I thank God for hearing the prayers, I thank God for protecting you, I thank God for you coming 8 days early. I know with every bit of your creation God was there every step of the way.

We also got your birth certificate and your social security card this week. You are officially a United States Citizen! You are officially Eddison Dee Jacobson! Congratulations my little angel. We welcome you with open arms and many hugs.

You are my amazing daughter. For these last 5 weeks I have done nothing but enjoy the time I have with you. I can not think of anywhere else I would rather be. I am your momma and I only want to do what is right by you. I know working may be something your daddy and I have to rethink. I want to work, but I want to do what is right for you.

The belly photo was a week before you arrived!

I pray God is listening and will provide for our family. I have no doubt everything will work the way it should.

Oh, Eddison. You are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. Being a mother is the greatest gift anyone could ever give. Being your mother is even better. You are the best baby.

You sleep for roughly 6-8 hours a night, you feed every 2-3 hours, you are so bright eyed all the time, you hold your head high, and you are already "talking". I am so proud!


I can remember taking the test to find out if you were coming. When the little lines appeared I wanted to jump up and down. Instead I walked into the closet and jumped there quietly. I couldn't wait to tell your dad, but I wanted to do it sneaky like. So I waited until after work and announced. Now 9+ months later you are in our lives and we will never be the same. I am so happy that test was positive and you made it here.

So, there are the updates, the thoughts, the joy... it all adds up to this one statement.

I love you Eddison Dee Jacobson!

4 Weeks

She is the most beautiful baby girl. Happy 4 weeks Eddison!

It has been 4 weeks since Eddison came into our lives. It has been a very quick 4 weeks. There are times I look at her and think she needs to slow down. She does. She holds her head up, she grabs, she rolls to her side. What is next?

Today has been a harder day than normal. I haven't been feeling momtastic - mainly because of the dog. Grizzly dug the flower bed and the rock path... Then got into the house, covered in mud, and wouldn't go back outside. That was my good morning. That was the moment I decided I need to focus on the good.

The good is - I am at home with my daughter. I am teaching her the basics of life, I am teaching her to be a good, spiritual woman. Those are things, if I were working, someone else would be responsible to teach her.

I am so blessed to be her mother. I need to take the time and really focus on that and not let the day get me down.

There are only 4.5 weeks left for me to be at home with her, then I go back to work. I know that day will be one of the hardest in our momma/daughter relationship. I thank God we were able to find someone so close, and we were able to have this much time together. I pray God allows the transition to be easier than I anticipate. I pray that she enjoys her time, that she still develops the way I know she will. Yet, in the back of my mind all I want to do is be with her. I want a break - I admit that. But, that is a break for ten minutes.

Check out those love rolls! I love her squishes.

I don't want to break from being her mom. I just want to take a nap, or just enjoy a coffee outside... I want to be able to focus. There is not one thing to focus on, but I feel like I am torn between so many things. I want to focus my 100% attention on either her. However, I am focusing on a 100 other things all at once and I feel like I am neglecting her. I am sorry for that. With that I will go take my Eddison in my arms and give her kisses.

Firsts and Momma Jealousy



Today was another day of firsts!

 

I almost hate writing that word. firsts. It means you are growing up and there are more things you are getting to do that you hadn't ever done. I thank God you are getting to do them, but I want my baby girl to remain tiny. You are so perfect in every way. I cant imagine my life without you in it. But, slow the clock down. Next thing you know I am going to have to go back to work and I can honestly say that will be one of the hardest things for me to do.

 

Your outfit.

The first of your firsts was you went to church. I got you a special outfit a week before that was adorable. Frills is what your Meme calls it. They sure were cute on you. Anywho, your Daddy got you dressed and we were off.
I suck, and did not take any photos with you. I am sorry.

See - you were adorable!

I wish I would have... because we are such an amazing family. But, I did take one of your outfit, you, and your Aunt Micah took a TON with you while at church. You were so good. You were grunting - but that is what you do. And oh is it amazing to hear those noises. Your Meme, momma, Aunt, Daddy, and Great Nana were all laughing. Other than that you were so peaceful. You would open your eyes and look around then you were asleep again. I cant wait until you are older and you get to looking around with those eyes, singing those songs, and just enjoying every moment of being there.

Aunt Micah's handy work with the photos.

Everyone was rather excited to see you there. Bro. Gary Evans even came out after us (we left early) to see you. He is such an amazing man. He was the one who baptized your momma. I

Still sleeping....

will tell you that story when you are older. It is a pretty awesome one. Your Aunt Micah and your momma were baptized the same day. Aunt Micah gave her hand, and as she was coming out of the water your momma went to Bro. Gary and gave her hand. Best decision of her life!

Family Fair Day!

Sorry. I got a little off track.

The next of your firsts was going to an event. What event? The Oklahoma State Fair! It happens every year, and every year your Prosser family goes and your momma HAS to get a foot long corn dog. I cant wait to share one with you. The best part is - I took a family photo!!!!! I don't think I took any other photos while we were there, but I made sure to get one of us with the Ferris Wheel.

The fair is fun, but it was hot. You pooped about 4 times, had 3 outfits on, and ate 3 times. I was rather proud I did not get flustered and was able to feed you in public (covered) and change you with out getting nervous or anxious. I have to admit though I became a wee jealous of your Aunts. They held you majority of the time and every time someone saw you - they got the congratulations she is beautiful comments. I wanted those.

I am so proud of you that I wanted to shout, "She is mine - over here!" We even had an old family friend ask your Aunt Micah how it was to use a midwife and have you at home. I finally cut in to saw you were mine and it was an amazing experience. I am so glad we had these firsts. I cant wait to see what else is in store for my mommy adventures with you. I love you Eddi Bear!
  

 

 





3 Weeks!

It is amazing how time is flying by. I know if I had to go back to work at 6 weeks I would be heart broken. I think even at 9 I may be. Tim went back to work and even with him gone I wanted to cry. I felt like our family was missing. However, Eddison and I rocked the being at home together. She was sooo good. I think I could do the stay at home momma gig. I would probably spend a lot more money and would have the best looking yard and house EVER :)

This was today at Meme and Papa's!

Anywho, my little Eddi Bear sure has changed a lot since her debut. She weighed in at 10 lbs this Monday. She is also longer... I can't believe how big she is. I am so proud of her! She is so smart, strong, and beautiful. I am working on a comparison of her and us to see whose baby picture she looks like - guess what? It is pretty much 50/50. It all depends on how she looks at the moment.

Here are my comparisons....

 

 

I have to get a pose like one of Tim's baby pictures to do his comparison... It is pretty awesome how close we look to her. No denying she is our baby girl! 

Moving on - Tomorrow is our first time to go to church. I am nervous excited. I can't wait for her to sit with Tim and I on the bench. Funny how that is something I always wanted but never really expressed it before. My faith in God seems to grow more and more every day. I know Satan will try his hand again to keep us from the church, but I know God is mightier and we will be there.

Squishy Baby Love

We finally got our first family photo. You were so good. I am so happy you are a part of our lives. I know that without you in it we weren't complete. 

Your daddy goes back to work Wednesday and I am a little worried at how I will handle that. I know that we will be okay, but having him home has been so nice. I enjoy him there to help. I know your daddy will have a hard time going back to work as well.  He was sick yesterday and he kept sneaking into the living room to see you. He sure does love you.

 

My sweet squishy miracle baby. You are so loved. Every morning I wake up and thank God for you, I pray for your safety and I am always praying for you to be okay. I have to say having you has increased my faith exceptionally. I immediately go to prayer when something alarms me. When your daddy was sick the first words from my mouth were, "Lord have mercy." and then protect my family.

I am unable to put into words the emotion that comes when I think about you, when I look at you, or when I hold you. You are so amazing. You can already hold your head up, you can roll to your side... SLOW DOWN! Not really, I am more proud than I am sad you are growing so quickly.

Did you know at 17 days old you already weigh 10 lbs? I mean look at the rolls... they are so adorable. It is so hard to not kiss them and squish them!

By the way - the photos we are looking at are your 2 week photos. Your Aunt Katie came over and took them for us. She did a great job!!!!

Never Made it to 40, Loving our 13 Days!

As you know we did not make it to 40 weeks. We made it to 38 weeks and 6 days.

Eddison is almost 2 weeks old and it makes me think, "Where has the time gone?" I still remember waking up to the contractions, I remember her being placed in my arms, it seems like time really does fly once they arrive.

Yet, I feel as though time flew with the pregnancy as well. Maybe getting older does this for you. Anyway, she has had her first photo shoot, (taken by Jessica Hardt) and will be getting her second one with momma and daddy very soon.

We are so happy she is here. Our sleep schedule is a little different, but we are tag teaming it so we both get about 4 hours of sleep. :)

The first 9 days were a handful. I ended up with hives all over if anyone walked in the door, then I got a clogged duct in my left breast and had a break down. The hives left at 7 days postpartum. The duct was one night. I have to give massive thanks to God for all the things he has blessed me with during these past 13 days.

I know with each prayer my baby girl is learning about faith and God. I know that with each trial I am hit with, as long as I pray, we will overcome.

Oh, and is Eddison strong. The next morning she was holding her own head up. Then at 8 days she was rolling to her side. I want her to slow down, but at the same time I am so impressed with her. Her cord came off also at the 7 days. She is my rock star.

I can't begin to tell you how becoming a momma changes your life. It is amazing. Everything I do is completely centered around her. It is all about her, my sleep doesn't matter so long as she is happy and growing strong.

We took our first car ride to McDonald's Redbox at day 8... I was a nervous wreck. I didn't want her to get hurt. I sat in the back seat while Tim drove us. I thank God Tim is a cautious driver or else I am sure I would have seriously panicked.

We also have went to Meme & Papa's house, Meme's classroom, Target, Ross, & Babies R Us, oh, and we ate with Uncle Jack at Chili's. She has had a busy 12 days.

As for me - well there are adjustments to my body and the healing process that I had no idea about. I am lucky the hives are gone, the PUPPS itch is nearly gone - it hits every now and again, I didn't tear so I didn't have to worry about that. I do have to say that breast feeding does hurt at times, but it is rewarding to see your child grow from something you produce. And Eddison is growing. We weighed her at a week and she was 8 lbs, 12 oz. I am almost sure at her 2 week weigh in she will be 9 lbs of pure awesome baby love!

I know this post is long, but there is so much I want to say. One thing - thank you to the ladies from General Assembly & Church of the Firstborn for the dinners. Those meals made it easy for us to continue on. I was unable to move a lot during the first week and those visits and warm meals were life savers.

So, overall having a child, having Eddison is so humbling, amazing, heartwarming, and life changing. Would I do it again? Yes. But, give me a few years to enjoy my little one!