Big Day of Events

You are officially 3 months and 2 days old. You are such an amazing baby. Everyone that meets you loves you instantly.

On your 3 month birthday you had a BIG boo-boo happen. Dawson was running to your momma and didn't see you on the floor and WAM! His foot went into your eye. I remained calm and took you into Kora's room and rocked you and talked to you. I think you still have a few "nightmares" about it though because you will cry-sleep and it breaks my heart.

On the upside you were a big girl and bounced back with smiles; and you didn't get a  black eye like we all thought you were going to have. All in all it was a pretty good day. You even showed everyone how you roll over now!












My beautiful baby girl is growing up so quickly. In a few short working days we will be together the whole day. I am sooo ready for that. Also, we are going to take your first road trip. We leave tomorrow for Tennessee. I know you will be good on the trip. I think I am most nervous because we will all be in the car together and that scares me. If anything happens we could all be taken or well, I won't talk about it.

While we are in Tennessee it will be Thanksgiving. I posted about that already... I am rather excited that you will meet all of my dad's side of the family. They are pretty awesome. Anyway, momma loves you and will post on Thanksgiving all the awesome festivities we will take part in while we are on vacation.

3 months

Look at those baby blues

I can not believe that on Saturday you will be 3 months old. It seems like yesterday you were in my tummy. I look at you and my whole world stops. You are just perfect.

You are starting to get two teeth... both in the lower jaw. I wish they would come in already. I hate to see you in pain. It makes my heart hurt. You rolled completely over today! I was so prepared for it since you have been rolling to your side so much that it didn't make me go - OH MY GOSH... That is until Aunt Katie said you did it for her that I realized how amazing that was. You are growing so quickly.

I am so beyond thrilled that in 4 working days we will be spending 24/7 together. I do not want to miss out on any of these milestones. I thank god you rolled over this morning for me so I was actually able to witness it. If not I am sure I would have cried if I missed it. Your Aunt got it on a video. I am going to try to post it.

After you rolled - I was proud

In news of what momma is going through - well periods. They say that when you breastfeed you won't have one... LIES! You can, it is simply up to your body. I am at peace with my stretch marks though. I am not at peace with other things but at the moment, it does not matter.

Moving on - You will be taking your FIRST road trip next week. I am beyond nervous for this. At the same time I am so excited. You will be on the road to Tennessee to see Poppa's side of the family. We will spend Thanksgiving there... which will be your FIRST Thanksgiving. Part of me; if I am being honest; is sad. This is also Kora's first Thanksgiving and I would love to spend it with her. Halloween and Thanksgiving are the only two holidays that you and Kora will share a first with and we wont be in the same state.

However, I am so excited for you to meet GG Pat and Grand Pop Dave  (totally just made that name for him). They are really anxious to meet you. GG Pat is one of the few who actually call you Eddi. I am glad she does though because that is why I chose your name. They along with your Great Uncle Patrick will be watching you while momma and Great Aunt Steph are Black Friday shopping. I can't wait to get you in on that once you are older.

Tomorrow I will post your 3 month photo, weight, & milestones. This month you will have quite a few.

I love you lil bear.

 

Mrs. Veronica

Madelyn and you during tummy time

So, you have been with Mrs. Veronica since Tuesday. The moment you saw her you smiled and it has made it so much easier for me. Then her little girls Madelyn and Lucy LOVE you.

Your daddy is normally the one to pick you up in the afternoons and he says that Madelyn was upset you were leaving for the day. I think that is the sweetest thing. Lucy likes to share her pacifier with you. Mrs. Veronica is nice and washes those so the germs aren't shared.

I love that you are with someone who loves you as much as their own children. When I drop you off I can see it in her eyes how excited she is to have you in her home. I have no worries about you getting hurt. The photo above is proof that she is working with you and isn't leaving you in a room somewhere to just stay. Again, I love her for this. I know God knew what he was doing when he put her in our lives.

Overall, the experience thus far has been good. It has not been good in the respect that your momma misses you terribly and wants nothing more than to be with you at all times. That said, momma is turning in her 30 day notice and as of Dec 6th she will get to be home with you 100% of the time.

I know I will miss out on cashing out sick/vacation time, but I don't care. I do not want another minute without you. I love you baby girl. Continue to grow and stay strong. You are so incredibly perfect. Momma is blessed to have you in her life. I am sure Mrs. Veronica feels the same.

A Long Week

Mrs. Veronica sent momma this.

Today is the day you are with someone that is NOT family. Talk about nerves for your momma. We walked into Mrs. Veronica's house and you smiled at her. For that alone I was put to ease. God knew what he was doing when he had her contact us. I wanted to cry, but I kept relying on God's word that he would provide a safe haven for you. Mrs. Veronica is that. She has already sent momma some photos and you appear super happy and that makes me happy.

Last week was the first week back to work. It was beyond hard. I cried so much on the way to work. I honestly felt like I was dying. However, your Gramma Karen was there watching you and sent me photos that made it easier. She was so happy to watch you that week. I was thankful we had her. Although, she wanted to take you back home with her to California. I told her I was  not sure about that. We will visit once you are a bit older... maybe this coming Spring. Then you can meet your cousin Evelyn.

Gramma Karen and you

Momma has decided that she will quit her job and be a full-time momma come the new year. I can not wait to be that. I love you so much and want to be your guiding light as you grow. You already have accomplished so much in the 11 weeks of your life that I could never be more proud of you. You have started to giggle. Meme was the first to REALLY hear you go. She said you were giggling for a good 5 minutes. You smile, you coo, and I swear you say hello!


Gramma Karen was wanting to take you home

Next thing is you sitting up. You already "walk" with assistance. I hold your hands and off you go. You are so amazing. There are times when I will sit and stare because you are so perfect and it takes me back to reality thinking I made you. I never in a million years thought I would be a momma and now that I am there is no way I ever want to be anything else. So, when we get to be home together I am going to make it my life's work to make you into a woman others will stand in awe at. You will know God, you will know right from wrong, and you will love with all your heart. I know you will be this amazing woman and I could never express how amazing it feels to be your mother. To be the one who brought you into this world. God did so good when he gave me you.

Last Weekend of Fulltime Momma

Halloween was a success. Your daddy dressed up as a farmer, I was a crow, and you were a scarecrow. We did our trick-o-treating in the neighborhood with your cousins and a friend from Daddy's work. It was a nice day out too. Not too cold like we thought it would be. You slept through the majority of the night but we still got you two houses of candy... you had a little bit of a loot at the end of the night. I am sure next year will be a bigger turn out ;-)

Your meme came to see you also. She was so excited to see you all dressed up! We took quite a bit of photos, but I haven't seen them all. I am so happy you were good while we were out.

Before we went out momma went to work and showed you off. While there the boss men told me I could come back to work part-time. Prayer answered. I was so worried about returning to work and being away from you for longer than an hour or more. Trust me nothing is worse than leaving you with anyone. I miss you as we drive away.





The Saturday following Halloween was momma's 26th birthday! You got to stay with Grandma Karen while momma and daddy had an adult date. We were only gone 1.75 hours and it was awful to not have you with me. I felt naked. It is so hard not having you with me. You are my everything.

I really think once I return to work I will make it a week and then turn in the 2 week notice. I feel like that isn't fair to work, but at the same time is it fair to you or me? And guess what? You are the only thing that matters.

So, here I am, at work, and I know it hasn't been too bad, but all I want to do is be with you. We will see what happens on Friday.