A Long Week

Mrs. Veronica sent momma this.

Today is the day you are with someone that is NOT family. Talk about nerves for your momma. We walked into Mrs. Veronica's house and you smiled at her. For that alone I was put to ease. God knew what he was doing when he had her contact us. I wanted to cry, but I kept relying on God's word that he would provide a safe haven for you. Mrs. Veronica is that. She has already sent momma some photos and you appear super happy and that makes me happy.

Last week was the first week back to work. It was beyond hard. I cried so much on the way to work. I honestly felt like I was dying. However, your Gramma Karen was there watching you and sent me photos that made it easier. She was so happy to watch you that week. I was thankful we had her. Although, she wanted to take you back home with her to California. I told her I was  not sure about that. We will visit once you are a bit older... maybe this coming Spring. Then you can meet your cousin Evelyn.

Gramma Karen and you

Momma has decided that she will quit her job and be a full-time momma come the new year. I can not wait to be that. I love you so much and want to be your guiding light as you grow. You already have accomplished so much in the 11 weeks of your life that I could never be more proud of you. You have started to giggle. Meme was the first to REALLY hear you go. She said you were giggling for a good 5 minutes. You smile, you coo, and I swear you say hello!


Gramma Karen was wanting to take you home

Next thing is you sitting up. You already "walk" with assistance. I hold your hands and off you go. You are so amazing. There are times when I will sit and stare because you are so perfect and it takes me back to reality thinking I made you. I never in a million years thought I would be a momma and now that I am there is no way I ever want to be anything else. So, when we get to be home together I am going to make it my life's work to make you into a woman others will stand in awe at. You will know God, you will know right from wrong, and you will love with all your heart. I know you will be this amazing woman and I could never express how amazing it feels to be your mother. To be the one who brought you into this world. God did so good when he gave me you.