Update - Eddi is 4 Months Old!

Looks like I am a little behind... Started this post on the 10th  & posted it... but actually updated it Dec 30!

Updates are... I quit my job at Young Brothers began a new one at Edge Electric, turned in my two weeks, and have become a 100% stay at home momma. Also, you turned 4 months old, we have had Christmas, you have tried new things, and we are headed into celebrating the New Year. Here we come 2014! Eddison is on a roll and no one will stop her.

Anywho, about the job situation... I don't know why I went from one directly to another but you live and learn. I'm so ready to just be a momma. Your Meme worries I will lose my identity and will want to go back to work. After YB, yes. After EE I decided that there is nothing else I would rather do than be a momma. So, I promise to teach you confidence in all things. I lacked it a lot growing up and once I became an adult I found it. Promise you that with it you do become a lot happier. Less worry I think.

Now on to the celebration of Jesus Christ and Christmas. Christmas Eve we went to Meme and Papa's and played Dirty Santa with the whole family and then came home around one am. So, for Christmas we opened presents at about 7am. You woke up daddy by "jumping" on him until he woke. He didn't seem 100% impressed but it was fun (for me). You were totally spoiled by your aunts and uncles, grandmas & grandpas.... Santa brought you Mr. Snail. You LOVE that thing so much. <--- There you are holding it tightly as I attempt to take your picture. As soon as that flash went off you doubled over to eat it. I guess I should post that photo too. Maybe later.

Next on the agenda is the other events of the month. Mainly being how much I, as a mother, a human, and as a woman I have grown. There is a lot to growing up I have had to learn within these past 4 months. I know I am a momma and I would not be anything else. You are my everything. It is so interesting to see how your life flips so quickly once a baby enters the equation. It seems surreal at times that you are already here and I am not walking around waiting on you to arrive.

Speaking of walking around with you in my tummy; we went to the mall and I wore my baby carrier with you in it. Talk about a flashback to being 9 months pregnant. By the time we left my back hurt, my legs hurt, and I wanted to sleep. It was so nice to look into the back seat and see you there. I enjoy having you out of my tummy. ;)

Which leads me to this statement; you have hit your 4 month mark. WOW!!!! You have been a part of our family for 1/3 of a year. Time is flying. So bittersweet. You are growing so quickly. As you start to get older I begin to see more of me in you. You are so determined and so impatient. If you can't figure something out immediately it upsets you. I love you sooo much.

Your newest thing is - I will say, "Up?" and you pull with all your might and lift your neck, head, and shoulders up and reach for my hands. You are so smart. I am always so impressed with you.

Also, we attempted the cereal again. Not in a bottle either... we tried a SPOON! You lean forward for the spoon. So adorable. We also tried applesauce. You still prefer momma to it all. Which makes me feel like I am doing a good job.

You know sometimes I wonder what it would be like if you weren't here. Would I still be working? Would I be thinking half of what I do? Would I sleep better? Probably. Is it worth the what if? Hell no.

You are 100% worth EVERY change that has taken place. Sleepless nights, messy house, circles under eyes, and a constant supervision; yep, all worth it. I love you sweet miracle. You are waking up now so I am going to sign off and hang out with you. I love you Eddi!