Growing Up

You seem to be growing so quickly. I catch myself thinking SLOW DOWN all the time. Yesterday while we were learning & playing you stood by yourself for about 10 minutes. I was so impressed but sad at the same time. You are only 20 weeks old. At the same time I am beyond thankful I am home with you to witness these things. Granted there are times when I think I should have tried it a little longer (the working gig), but then you smile at me, you sit up, or you smile and there is no where else I would rather be. I know money may get tight at times but we can make it and it is worth the struggle. 

I guess as I write this I feel as though I should explain what I mean a little more. If I were working I would be bringing in money... however, I would be 10 hrs a day away from you, sitting at a desk, pumping every 3 hrs, and missing you. I would have no idea what you were doing, I would sit and stare and think of all the moments I am missing out on. It was not worth it. I gave it two weeks - started another job gave that 2 weeks and realized NOTHING in this world is worth not being with you. So, yes... I do not bring in money, yes I am a stay at home mom, and YES I love every single second I have. I love all the worry that may come from money because it means that is another day I am spending with you. It is another day I am not sitting at a desk missing my beautiful daughter. 

As you grow and one day have a child of your own I pray you make the choice that fits you and your family. I wanted to be a working mom. That was before I had you. I thank God we have the opportunity to allow myself to stay home. I thank God for a husband who supports me in this, a family who says good for you, and a home in which I can do it from. 

Now on to you growing up. You officially eat baby cereal. It is mixed with mommas milk but wow you sure love the stuff. If we stop to let you take a break you get so upset. We even moved into adding some baby food because it seems milk is not enough any more. (That is also bittersweet) So yesterday you had some sweet potatoes. Oh did you chow down on those. Your daddy was so excited you liked them. That is one of his favorite things to eat. You are a pretty good eater too. You don't spit it back like I thought you would. Instead you sit there and chew on the spoon until the food is cleaned off. It is adorable. Speaking of the spoon - that is one of your newest favorite things to hold. You grab it and try to stick it in your mouth. It is so cute. You look like a big girl when you do it too. The video is the cereal you were eating. We call you our little shark. You come at it with such gusto that it is like a baby shark going for its first meal. 

Well my sweet baby, I guess it is time to say goodbye. I am trying to prepare our household for when your daddy deploys (in a few weeks) and it seems to be hard to do. More so mentally than physically. I keep telling Daddy to spend as much time as he can with you because soon he will be gone. I promise daily to skype him so we can see him! Welp, you just woke up. I love you!