8 months

I remember being 8 months pregnant and being so nervous/excited that you would be here soon. It makes it hard to comprehend you are here and have been for 8 months. These 16 months of pregnancy and having you are the best months of my life. You have completed my life in so many ways.

I was thinking about how my life before was simply work, home, sleep, repeat. I am so glad it has changed. I get to wake up with you, I get to put you to bed, and I spend the day with you teaching you. Another great thing is I have been reading the Bible. As I read I think of how I get to teach you things not based on hearsay but on what I have read and learned, and the things I have witnessed. That is the greatest gift I can ever give you.

So, my little 8 month beauty. You spent the day crying because your tooth hasn't broke, you got to see your cousins, aunt, Meme, Great Nana, and Great Uncle Victor. You had a good day I think. You fell asleep early, and you slept rather nicely. I love you so my sweet baby.

Happy 8 months to you!!!!!

Eddi's First Easter

Early morning for the both of us. You were awake before 7am, so we hung out and I gave you your Easter basket. First impression was well... you made a face. :) Later you decided that eating the tissue in the basket was the best thing. Once we got all ready for the day we headed off for church.

Little Miss Eddi; when you have a daughter or son I pray they take naps better than you. I say this with complete honesty. You used to be fantastic then out of no where you won't close your eyes. I get sad, upset, and cranky, but I have to realize you are an infant and you are BUSY! Yesterday you took a total of 1 hour in naps. (2 - 30 min ones) Then you didn't go to sleep until 9 pm and were up a lot. I think you were over worked.

I mean it is now 10:30 and you are sleeping but it took a while to get you there. Word of advice - if your child even appears sleepy - get them to bed ASAP. The longer I wait to get you to sleep the worse it is to get you to close your eyes. Anyway, totally went off the Easter train haha. I digress.

After church we went to Meme and Papa's and were there a long time. The only nap you took was when it was time to hunt eggs. Needless to say you missed that part. It was fun though, we had all the family (minus your Daddy) there and man were you active. You crawled, attempted walking, and ate everything you could. It was pretty awesome. You also had fun with Kora and Dawson. Parker went fishing so you didn't hang out with him much.


We finally headed home and let me tell you this - if you do marry military prepare for that lonely sick feeling. It will hit you when you least expect it. When we got home; it hit.

Anyway, in two days you will be 8 months old. I can't believe it. I still double check to make sure that is right. It seems like you were being named yesterday. Soon you will be a year old and then I will cry and cry. The upside, your personality is starting to truly come through and omg you are awesome!!!! Always smiling, looking around, taking things in, and you giggle a lot. It makes me so happy to be your momma. You are going to light up the world when you get older.

Remember that the best things in life are faith, family, and love and know that I will always love you. Here is to your first Easter and the many memories you made during the special day.

Loves and kisses my Eddi Bear!

Teethers and Crawling

Well little miss; you now have 2 teeth - one on top and one on the bottom. You can CRAWL. You wave and you know the difference between hello and bye bye.

I hate that your Daddy is away during all of these firsts. I love that I am able to experience them though. You change daily and it amazes me how smart you are. There are days that I break down because I feel so overwhelmed being the "single mom" while Daddy is gone. Then you will smile at me and it all fades away.

Eddison I want you to know that being a momma is not the easiest thing to do, but it is the greatest thing you will ever do. You will have moments of pure defeat, moments of pure joy, and moments of pure confusion. In each one you will learn something new about yourself. You will find a strength you never knew and you will be in awe at what you can achieve. I pray that you will get to experience the joy of being a mother. OR of being an aunt. They both are so rewarding and so inspiring.

I love you my little angel. I want you to know how amazing you are, I want you to know how much I enjoy being your mother. I want you to know how loved you are. Never will there be a day I don't tell you I love you. I know I may become disappointed in you but that won't mean I don't love you.

You are going to be such an amazing woman. I know that God is in you already and that you will be close to him and the faith that I sit and cry at the fact you are mine. I pray I can be a guide to you and can show you the strength and wonders of the spirit. If ever you have a question I don't want you to hesitate to come and ask.

--- I will try to get a photo of your teeth and then I will post a video of you crawling. I love you Eddi Bear.

Pickles, Deployment, and Trips

We are on our way to another month without Daddy. It isn't something I enjoy, but I know he has to do it. Hopefully one day we will be able to take a long vacation and go somewhere amazing. Just us.

I was actually thinking about your first birthday. It is a week before Labor Day - maybe we can go camping? I remember going when I was younger and I loved it so much. I want you to love the outdoors and to experience as much as you can.

This makes me think of you and food. You try it all and you seem to love it all. You may make a face at first but you keep on. This was so with PICKLES. Daddy hates them. I love them. You enjoyed them. Your faces were so cute. You would make this look like what?! then you would put it back in your mouth and keep going. It was priceless.

Anyway, since your Daddy is going to leave I was thinking of us taking a trip to Tahoka for a weekend. I feel like we need to go and I truly miss everyone there. Who knows maybe this is God's plan and something amazing is waiting for us. I am just worried about the 6 hour drive. You are great in the car for a while, then you want out. Kinda like being held. You are fine until you want to walk and move. Then by George you better let her go!!! However, I think if we were to leave late at night you would probably sleep most the way. So--- that is the plan.

I can't think of much more that has happened. Just know that I love you unconditionally and am so blessed to be your momma. Can't wait to hear your first word, see you crawl, walk...etc. Love you Eddi Bear.