25 Weeks

How far long are you? 25 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 6.8 lbs (142 to 148.8)
Maternity clothes? Most my winter clothes were baggy so we are mainly in leggings and baggy shirts :)
Stretch marks? None that are new. 
Sleep: If only that were possible... Eddi and you keep me up!
Best moment this week: Eddi falling asleep on you :)
Have you told family and friends:Everyone knows 
Miss Anything? My ability to drink all the caffeine I want.
Movement: Mostly at night or right after I eat or drink.... YOU ARE STRONG
Food cravings: Kool-aid, fruit snacks, and pepperollies.
Anything making you queasy or sick: nope.
Have you started to show yet: Yep... same exact size I was with Eddison... even weight!
Gender prediction: I was right on my prediction! 
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In - but more out than with Eddison, you are lower
Wedding rings on or off? On and loose
Happy or Moody most of the time: Majority of the time happy!
Looking forward to: Your daddy coming home for CHRISTMAS!



I want you to know that although I did not do this weekly, you are very important. Life is just more chaotic with your daddy being gone, Eddison running around, and Momma not working at a desk all day. I love you little man more than you know. I am so excited to meet you - 105 days!

Midwife Meeting

We met with Sis. Kim - I am so calm when she is around. Makes me at ease thinking Toby will be here soon, and she will be here for it. I keep thinking of how fast this pregnancy seems to be going. I feel like we just found out. We were talking about how active Eddison is, she was that way in the womb. She said babies are the way they are in the womb, out of the womb. I think Tobias will be calm, active when he wants, and the rest just chill. Eddison is my little tornado. I love her so.

anyway, all is well in the world of Baby Toby. T-minus 113 days and he will soon be here in our home, and our arms. I can hardly wait to kiss his little head, and smell that baby smell,.

One of "THOSE" days

There are days when I think I can do this. I will be super mom. Then there are days like yesterday/last night and I think to myself... God must be crazy giving me another child to care for. I was at a breaking point last night. Eddison, sweet Eddison, you did not want to sleep and I was so stressed, emotionally drained, and tired. You woke up from midnight to 5:30 and then woke up at 7am. I swear I said things to you that a momma shouldn't and for that I took my own mother of the year card away.

Last night I prayed for patience because I was literally breaking down. I sobbed and sobbed because nothing was helping you. If anything it was getting worse. I don't have any idea what was affecting you so much. I wish I could have taken it from you. We both woke this morning looking beat up. We both were so tired. We canceled a play date because of it.

Then Sam had a rough night too and we decided to bum it out together, eat chicken, and gossip while you and Alahna "played." I am so  thankful I have friends who don't judge me for the slip ups, and who instead sit there and go, girl... me too. I know we are all human and want to put on the EVERYTHING IS FINE face, but let's face it. Motherhood is hard. Motherhood is hard single, married, separated, or alone (because your husband is always deployed, etc.).

So, ladies instead of shamming one other secretly, join hands and let other moms know that it is hard. There are days you will sit in your bedroom, living room floor, the bathroom, or your closet and cry. I don't mean small tears, but those that won't stop regardless of you wanting them to. Ladies, it is okay. CRY! You need to let it out, you need support for those days, thank God for family and friends who support those days. Thank God they understand pregnancy isn't easy, having a toddler is hard, and being a woman some days just sucks.

Eddison... one day you will experience this. Don't tuck tail and pretend it is okay, let someone know, find friends who are there for you, who support your ideals, your goals, and you. Hold on to those women and remember... they may be having the same day!

Ladies - I love you all. Chin up buttercup.... get a coffee, chocolate, ice cream, tea, or water... whatever helps and breathe. We are all with you, we have all had THOSE days.