One of "THOSE" days

There are days when I think I can do this. I will be super mom. Then there are days like yesterday/last night and I think to myself... God must be crazy giving me another child to care for. I was at a breaking point last night. Eddison, sweet Eddison, you did not want to sleep and I was so stressed, emotionally drained, and tired. You woke up from midnight to 5:30 and then woke up at 7am. I swear I said things to you that a momma shouldn't and for that I took my own mother of the year card away.

Last night I prayed for patience because I was literally breaking down. I sobbed and sobbed because nothing was helping you. If anything it was getting worse. I don't have any idea what was affecting you so much. I wish I could have taken it from you. We both woke this morning looking beat up. We both were so tired. We canceled a play date because of it.

Then Sam had a rough night too and we decided to bum it out together, eat chicken, and gossip while you and Alahna "played." I am so  thankful I have friends who don't judge me for the slip ups, and who instead sit there and go, girl... me too. I know we are all human and want to put on the EVERYTHING IS FINE face, but let's face it. Motherhood is hard. Motherhood is hard single, married, separated, or alone (because your husband is always deployed, etc.).

So, ladies instead of shamming one other secretly, join hands and let other moms know that it is hard. There are days you will sit in your bedroom, living room floor, the bathroom, or your closet and cry. I don't mean small tears, but those that won't stop regardless of you wanting them to. Ladies, it is okay. CRY! You need to let it out, you need support for those days, thank God for family and friends who support those days. Thank God they understand pregnancy isn't easy, having a toddler is hard, and being a woman some days just sucks.

Eddison... one day you will experience this. Don't tuck tail and pretend it is okay, let someone know, find friends who are there for you, who support your ideals, your goals, and you. Hold on to those women and remember... they may be having the same day!

Ladies - I love you all. Chin up buttercup.... get a coffee, chocolate, ice cream, tea, or water... whatever helps and breathe. We are all with you, we have all had THOSE days.