4 Days Remaining

I have had this countdown on my phone that tells me how many days until I have to return to work. Today it says 4 days.

I want to cry.

Last night I prayed and prayed about so many things and one of them was work. I prayed that God would show me what I am supposed to do. Should I go back to work or should I quit. I prayed that I would get a sign and it would show me where God wants me to be.

This morning I was getting up and around and about to sit down to eat breakfast and I saw this.

This letter was written from Tim. I got to the second sentence and started to cry. Tim has no idea but he was used by God and I was able to receive my answer. The problem now is do I go back and try it for a week or do I rip the Band-Aid and tell them today? My gut says to do a week and God will provide with me a way to quit without burning bridges. Now, I want it to be God that guides me in this. I know he will provide for our family if it happens I do quit. I know the reason I am returning is not because 1. I am supposed to be there 2. I love my job or 3. I have to.... the simple reason I am returning is because I want to pay of another debt and then be able to not work with out worry.

I am going to let go, and let God in the situation. I know he has always provided for me, he has always lead me to the places I needed to be. Everything happens for a reason. I know Eddison is my reason. She is my reason for everything that I do.

Eddison when you are old enough to read this I pray that you read it with an understanding that your mother and your father were always concerned with your well-being. We only did things that were beneficial to you. Selfish was not something we did. Eddison I love you from the deepest parts of my being. You are my saving grace and my light. Truly you are my sunshine.