9 WEEK Board Photo

I forgot to post this the other day... so here ya go!

Weeks 8 and 9

I somehow overlooked these weeks. So there are the belly shots... I know once it gets bigger that shirt is coming down.
I'm already unable to wear some of my jeans, I think it is more my hips than stomach though. I should measure my hips too.... Oh fun!

Right now the biggest thing on my mind is having a home ready to embrace a child. I don't want to be in a scramble trying to get everything ready a month before the arrival.

So, this weekend we may be prepping the house with what ever we can. I've got a swing and bassinet. And a few diapers. It's the big ticket items. I know Tim seems to think people will buy those for us.... I don't.

I keep relating to our wedding and it is best to just do it with the mindset no one will be helping... That way it is taken care of.

That sounds like I have no faith in others.... I just, well honestly, don't want the glory hog ruling over me all the time. So if I do it I don't have to omg every time I see the person. Bad attitude... I know. I'm pregnant I can be that way.

Announce

Oh, little nugget how badly I want to tell the world you are in my womb. Your Aunt Jess is planning a visit and I have it all figured out the photos we will take to help us tell the world of your coming.

 

This is the picture we will probably go with.. just in the bamboo were we took our engagement pictures.

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 Happy 1 year to Tim and Sabrina and... Welcome our little one who will make an appearance August/September 2013!

Oh I can't wait.

Pregnancy Brain

Seems it has hit me full force. That dreaded pregnancy brain. I hate the idea of blaming my stupidity on my pregnancy...but I am not a stupid girl. I have almost had 3 wrecks within the past week, I have misspelled numerous things, I have done sooo many things wrong it is beginning to worry me.

The biggest thing is I am afraid. I am terrified to drive, write a letter, do math, or simply talk to anyone. That sucks.

I got a gift from my sister yesterday. Super awesome. I just was in a la-la world it didn't really phases me. Tim is sick, I am tired, and I honestly forget everything. So, she got upset I wasn't immediately at her house to pick it up.

Anyways, she got me a bassinet that you can carry, that rocks, and is gender neutral. I am really happy she did that for me. It is set up in the baby room awaiting arrival. Now we just have to keep the cats out of the room and the bassinet.

Little Bassinet for Baby Nugget ;-)

I haven't even bought this nugget anything. I think mostly because I haven't announced to social media. I can't post pictures immediately about "LOOK WHAT I GOT!" March will be here soon though. I just have to get that picture. So... zoo anyone?

Been Awhile

Apparently I have been too busy to write a blog post. So, here I am!

Lately it has been dizziness for me.Yesterday I actually got so dizzy I about hit a lady in our edition and some kids. I decided I shouldn't drive ha ha. Tim just got sick... I think it is the flu. I am avoiding him so I don't catch it. Prior to the ick though Tim has been amazing. He cooks, cleans, etc. I am so proud to say he is my husband. He will make a great husband.

Next on my mind; I am trying to maintain my fitness while hosting a baby and not over doing it. My solution. Every time I go to the bathroom I do 10-20 hip flexes and 15 push-ups (from the sink). It has made me feel really good. I have actually lost weight since this pregnancy. I am down to 133. Rather exciting in my opinion.

Other than that we are trying to decide on some bedding... here is my choice.

Hormones

I was asked if I had become hormonal yet. I honestly can say it hasn't hit me. Well, until today. I seriously lost my cool. I went and cried during lunch because I couldn't handle it. There are so many things that are taking place inside my body I don't know how to verbally express myself.

So, the response is tears. Looks like the hormonal Sabrina is here. Baby nugget get ready for an adventure.

8 weeks of baby fun

Yesterday was 8 weeks... 2 months! Where has the time gone? It was such a busy day yesterday that I really didn't have time to sit back and say, "wow!"

So, wow!!! We are that much closer to having little baby J here with us. The more time goes on the more I think the baby is a boy. Either would be amazing. We just need a name for a little man.

I like Jonah! :-)

Well, it is time to head to church... Enjoy our photo shoot.

Gummy Bear

We had our second ultrasound done today. Our baby is the size of a gummy bear with the heartrate of 159 bpm!

I got teary eyed when we heard the little heart. All that pain is worth it to see your baby growing. I am pretty sure he/she has doubled in size since the 8th. I am so thankful our little nugget is safe. I think I will sleep soundly tonight knowing the baby is sleeping nicely in my uterus.

The only other thing is I want to let little nugget know how loved he/she is before they even arrive. The brethern and those of my friends who showed geniune convern and passion was amazing. I feel truly blessed and I know my nugget will arrive in a world loved by many.

Trials Only Make You Stronger

These past few days have been a huge trial. On Tuesday afternoon I started to have massive cramps in my lower abs. They continued to only get worse as the night went on. By 6:30pm I was in so much pain I sat in the closet bawling my eyes out. I honestly thought I was about to lose my nugget. I sent out some prayer requests and Katie gave me advice on how to ease the pain. I got in a warm bath and just relaxed. Then I was too cold to think of anything else. (I like STEAMING baths)

I had relief for about 2 hours then finally fell asleep about 9:30pm. Two hours later I was up with the worst pains I had ever felt. I was doubled over, crying, pleading, and begging with God he wasn't taking my baby. I couldn't stand it and by 1am I was calling people to see if the elders would pray for me. Finally, around 2/3am I was able to sleep and slept until 7am. The pain never fully went away. It has been a dull ache and then comes back quickly and sharp.

Wednesday morning we were scheduled to do a Tricare pregnancy program and I decided pain or not we will go. It ended up being very informative. Following the appointment we went up to the OB/GYN department at TAFB and asked about the cramping. The lady told me it sounds like I am stretching. My uterus is growing rapidly and it is pulling the muscles apart. Then we spoke with Penny from the same department and she said to call Leanna from OU to get an actual response.

So, we call and our response from OU Medical was, "I can not tell you anything because you have not ever actually stepped foot in our office." I was livid. I said, "So, you can't even tell me if this is normal or what to do to help the pain?" He said, "No, I can't because you haven't been here, it is a legal matter." I then said, "Well, that was completely no help." and hung up on them.

Top: 7 weeks 4 days Bottom: 7 weeks 0 days

Needless to say I still have no 100% answer for what the cramps are. We have our second ultrasound Friday and I will ask then. Oh, and here is what my stomach looks like now... I would say a little bit bigger than last week.
















Also, Tim's sister, Tori, called last night and found out she is expecting the end of Sept. Looks like I will be an aunt right after being a mom.

Faith and Love

Tomorrow marks a day where we learn what is covered and now for our insurance. I am going to ask about home birth. Like what if I go into labor and can't make it to the hospital... is that covered.

I know God will provide in everything. He has been so prominent in my life these last few months I know with each day it is a lesson testimony to share with others.

I don't know why we are so blessed as of late. I am beyond thankful though. At church Sunday I sat there thinking if baby nugget does truly hear what I do how blessed is this baby. Before he/she enters the world he/she is learning about God. I was overcome with love and joy.

7 weeks 1 day

Today we are officially seven weeks and 1 day and our nugget is the size of a blueberry. It seems surreal. Today my mom said she forgot... And then said how neat to be reminded.

It is neat. I don't forget but I do have those moments where I don't feel sick, I don't hurt... Then I get a small ache and I smile. There is a baby and I thank God he blessed me with the ability to carry.

I have decided that it doesn't matter what everyone else says. If someone has an opinion that is okay. I too have my own. I am sure God will lead me in the right direction throughout this pregnancy and I have the faith to follow through.

And as always here is my photo of the belly!

Thoughts & Emotions

So, I have been thinking a lot about our little ultra sound. I am not sure I did my emotions justice during that post. It was by far one of the greatest things I have ever seen. It was a mere flicker on the screen but it was so amazing. There is a second heartbeat in me. I am growing life.

I wish I could have recorded the moment. I have never been so impressed or amazed with myself. The fact I could produce something as complex as life is astonishing. I know Tim was just as excited.

When we left he was 100% smiles. Also, for the first time last night he actually opened up and told me about how excited he was. He said he wasn't nervous about if it is okay or not. All he is worried about now is the dad part. Trying to figure out if he will be good at it.

I think with prayer and the desire to be the best parents we can we will be good parents. I pray the child turns out better than I did. I pray the child doesn't go through the things I had to, I pray every morning the child will be loved and know it is loved from the day we found out we were having him/her.

1st Ultrasound

Today we take our first big baby step. We are going to get an ultrasound to make sure everything is okay. I am so worried about it possibly being ectopic, it being gone, or there being two. I wonder how I will react. Will I hold my cool?


I held my cool. I didn't even cry like I wanted too. I did smile like a nerd though. There was only one little baby in there. No twins. But so far healthy heartbeat and size.

We got to see the little heart flicker and then they measured and the little nugget is measuring right on schedule. 6weeks 4 days.

We are due to have Baby Nugget on August 31st, 2013!

The little line on the left is Baby Nugget - ;)

Ultrasound and 6 Weeks Update

Today we go for our ultrasound. It isn't from our midwife but a place that does them for free when your appointments are later on. I am very nervous... What if the baby isn't there, what if there are 2 babies... I hate the what if game. But, I woke up this morning feeling like a truck hit me, there are massive cramps and I feel week. I immediately prayed that our baby is still holding on.

This was canceled and rescheduled for tomorrow due to double booking.

Even though I felt terrible I took a picture this morning and made a collage of the weeks. It is crazy how my stomach is so big. I know it is just bloat but it is kinda fun to see it. Although, it does make it hard to hide from others. Or I just look as though I ate way too much food haha!

6w 4d, 5w 5d, 3w4d

Anyways, to go back to this weekend. We had a house warming party on Saturday and I was surprised by the turnout. Many near and dear people made an appearance. It was awesome. I was able to share the news with Brandi Bates finally. She was so surprised and said why am I just now finding out. I told her it was because we haven't seen one another.

Apparently when you find out you have to tell people immediately. I am still worried about telling people. It is so scary. I hate the stress that I feel daily thinking we could lose the baby. I sincerely feel for any woman who has lost a child. I never truly understood that feeling but being pregnant opens your eyes to a lot of things. I just pray God comforts and gives them peace.

Also, I have decided if another person asks point blank then yes I will tell them. I don't want to go through what Kim and I did. I still hate that she found out the way she did. But am beyond excited she knows.

Bethany F. and Gary & Ladonna know also. Gary was told by my brother about it. Way to keep a secret baby brother. Bethany knows because she was the next one who flat out asked me. I think tonight I may just go where ever Kalyn is because I can't wait any longer to tell her. Here comes stalker Sabrina ;-) We are meeting tonight.

I almost blurted to Jess and Manda today. I think I may send them a photo at the 8 week mark with 2 fingers up (2mths) and then that will be the way to announce. I pray they are as excited as I am!

Appointment

We have our first appointment.... drum roll....

Feb 5th, 2012 @ 1pm.

I am totally nervous. The day of the appointment, Lord willing, we will be 10 weeks. We meet with our midwife Leanna Harkess at OU Physicians. I am going to ask her about delivering at home. I have no idea if she does that. I would love the option though. The one thing is that this will lead us to an, "I don't know" on the due date. The baby gets to choose that.

I can't wait to possibly see/hear the little one. I feel so confident on having the baby with a midwife. There is no sense of nervousness... there is a sense of I REALLY WANT THE BABY BORN AT HOME though. If I go into labor at home.. maybe that will happen. God is holding all of this in his hands.

We are also at 6 weeks today. Here is a photo from 5w5d compared to when we were in DC and I would have been 3w4d.

And then there is also this.... Kim knows about the pregnancy now. She did not get to find out the way I planned.

I thought this blog was private and it wasn't. But, I am sooo happy she knows now and I can talk with her. She is definitely someone to help me when I get freaked out. She is also the first to know about this appointment. EEP!

One down, two to go. I still need Brandi, and Kalyn. If only we weren't all too busy to meet. Praying by the end of the week we can get together.

Puberty

My oldest nephew has now decided I will be having a girl. And, that a three (holding his hand up with 3 fingers) makes a girl. I didn't quite understand it, then I went *light bulb*.

He is a smart Lil booger. So - ladies and gents. They both have determined that Tim and I will be having a girl. Let's see if they are right.

Now the real post:
This puberty like ickness I have going on sucks. I have zits on my chest, my back, my face. Seriously? When I went through it the first time it wasn't even this bad. I feel like a pepperoni face.

Not to mention the ugly boob syndrome I have right now. Icky. Totally not impressed with my body. The only plus side is I have only gained half a lb since last week. Negative side - my stomach has grown two - TWO - inches. Wow... at this rate I will be an ogre by the time Lil nugget shows.

Anyways, there is my wonderful post for our 6 week 0 day post!

Husbands/Future Dads

Today I have had a LOT of time on my hands. Some may say that is good, I disagree. It has lead my mind to wondering.

I have taken 3 gender tests (ha ha and its a girl), I have scheduled an ultrasound for Monday (freaking out about that), and I have managed to preplan my whole 2nd month of pregnancy.

Tim would say I am obsessing. Yep, that is me.

I worry about how Tim is handling all this. He isn't saying much at all. There wasn't even a tear in his eye when I told him about it. When - the first time we decided to "try" he cried. So, does this mean he isn't ready, does this mean he doesn't want it, does this mean what?

Seriously, talk with me. I am sitting here on a daily basis freaking out. Changing my eating habits, changing my money habits, and changing future plans. Where he is concerned with a full-motion or tilt wall mount for our TV.

How about you show that type of concern for our baby. Come home with a shirt, flowers for the momma, or maybe talk to the momma. Many options.

Sometimes I worry if maybe I pushed him into it too fast. Maybe I should have waited to tell him. Give him a moment to process the what if factor. Like my sister in law said, "Tim might have a hard time with it since it would force him into reality... (for lack of better term.)"

I have no idea. I do wish I could read minds!

New Year

So we shared the information with a few more friends at our New Year's Eve party. Jordan, Stanson, Linds, and Dustin. It was so fun sharing.

Jordan started to cry a little, Linds was sorta spoiled. They were cracking jokes about me not lifting things and milking it. But it felt good to have others know.

I can't wait to tell Brandi, Kalyn, Kim... They are going to die.

Anyways, the New Year is going to be so awesome. Full of big steps and life changing things.

Today we were discussing daycare. Will it be beneficial, both mentally and financially, for us. I know I want to work but with Tim's possible deployments it scares me to leave my unborn baby. But I have no idea if I will make it as a stay at home mom. I guess only time will tell.