Love

Well little one we are almost to the 6 month mark. Look at you growing! Today we have an appointment to measure your growth, your due date, and listen to your little heart beat. Your dad and I are so excited.

 

 

Last night I sat and watched you move across my stomach, kick me, and do all sorts of ninja moves. I was overwhelmed with happiness. Jade even sat there through some of it. Then you got a little more active and he ran. He loves you though. :)

 

 

As we approach the ever looming due date I become more and more excited, nervous, and all around jumpy. I pray daily for your health, for my health, for a safe delivery, and so much more.

 

We were asked our greatest fears at Operation Homefront - Baby Shower. I sat there quietly. I am not one who will speak my fears. Yet, I feel I should. My greatest fear is losing you. The second thing is one or both of us dying during delivery.

 

Only God knows how much time we have on earth and he has a plan.

 

Today I was reminded of how no one knows this plan but him. The news of a lost child makes one sick to their stomach. I mourn for those who have lost. I pray God comforts them in the time of need.

For those who have lost I will constantly have you in my prayers. I will never forget how I felt upon hearing the news.

 

God knows I feel as though I don't deserve a pregnancy so easy. Yet, he has allowed things to go well. Maybe it was because of my birth story and knowing how fragile life is that I am blessed with this child. I may never know.

 

I do know I am thankful beyond words. I am blessed beyond belief, and I am truly humbled by this experience.