25 Weeks

How far long are you? 25 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 6.8 lbs (142 to 148.8)
Maternity clothes? Most my winter clothes were baggy so we are mainly in leggings and baggy shirts :)
Stretch marks? None that are new. 
Sleep: If only that were possible... Eddi and you keep me up!
Best moment this week: Eddi falling asleep on you :)
Have you told family and friends:Everyone knows 
Miss Anything? My ability to drink all the caffeine I want.
Movement: Mostly at night or right after I eat or drink.... YOU ARE STRONG
Food cravings: Kool-aid, fruit snacks, and pepperollies.
Anything making you queasy or sick: nope.
Have you started to show yet: Yep... same exact size I was with Eddison... even weight!
Gender prediction: I was right on my prediction! 
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In - but more out than with Eddison, you are lower
Wedding rings on or off? On and loose
Happy or Moody most of the time: Majority of the time happy!
Looking forward to: Your daddy coming home for CHRISTMAS!



I want you to know that although I did not do this weekly, you are very important. Life is just more chaotic with your daddy being gone, Eddison running around, and Momma not working at a desk all day. I love you little man more than you know. I am so excited to meet you - 105 days!

Midwife Meeting

We met with Sis. Kim - I am so calm when she is around. Makes me at ease thinking Toby will be here soon, and she will be here for it. I keep thinking of how fast this pregnancy seems to be going. I feel like we just found out. We were talking about how active Eddison is, she was that way in the womb. She said babies are the way they are in the womb, out of the womb. I think Tobias will be calm, active when he wants, and the rest just chill. Eddison is my little tornado. I love her so.

anyway, all is well in the world of Baby Toby. T-minus 113 days and he will soon be here in our home, and our arms. I can hardly wait to kiss his little head, and smell that baby smell,.

One of "THOSE" days

There are days when I think I can do this. I will be super mom. Then there are days like yesterday/last night and I think to myself... God must be crazy giving me another child to care for. I was at a breaking point last night. Eddison, sweet Eddison, you did not want to sleep and I was so stressed, emotionally drained, and tired. You woke up from midnight to 5:30 and then woke up at 7am. I swear I said things to you that a momma shouldn't and for that I took my own mother of the year card away.

Last night I prayed for patience because I was literally breaking down. I sobbed and sobbed because nothing was helping you. If anything it was getting worse. I don't have any idea what was affecting you so much. I wish I could have taken it from you. We both woke this morning looking beat up. We both were so tired. We canceled a play date because of it.

Then Sam had a rough night too and we decided to bum it out together, eat chicken, and gossip while you and Alahna "played." I am so  thankful I have friends who don't judge me for the slip ups, and who instead sit there and go, girl... me too. I know we are all human and want to put on the EVERYTHING IS FINE face, but let's face it. Motherhood is hard. Motherhood is hard single, married, separated, or alone (because your husband is always deployed, etc.).

So, ladies instead of shamming one other secretly, join hands and let other moms know that it is hard. There are days you will sit in your bedroom, living room floor, the bathroom, or your closet and cry. I don't mean small tears, but those that won't stop regardless of you wanting them to. Ladies, it is okay. CRY! You need to let it out, you need support for those days, thank God for family and friends who support those days. Thank God they understand pregnancy isn't easy, having a toddler is hard, and being a woman some days just sucks.

Eddison... one day you will experience this. Don't tuck tail and pretend it is okay, let someone know, find friends who are there for you, who support your ideals, your goals, and you. Hold on to those women and remember... they may be having the same day!

Ladies - I love you all. Chin up buttercup.... get a coffee, chocolate, ice cream, tea, or water... whatever helps and breathe. We are all with you, we have all had THOSE days.

Tobias Jacobson

Welcome Mr. Tobias "Toby" Jacobson!

That is right, we are having a little boy. I am beyond thrilled and excited that our little family will welcome another man into our world. He will be the fire to our ice, and our completion. His name was picked with thought and care. It means - God is good. Oh is our God good.

I can't believe we are over halfway through this pregnancy and soon I will be a mother of two amazing children. Watching Eddison grow daily is aw-inspiring and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I can't even begin to imagine what Toby will bring.

Eddison already says, "Bubba" so I think she is excited to be a big sister come April. She will be a great one. I am not sure she truly understands what is about to happen, but I know she enjoys taking care of others so she will probably see Toby as another one to love and care for.... or to wrestle with!

I am so excited to have a lil man and lil lady running around making me smile and want to cry all at the same time! Wish me luck and I will try to keep everyone updated as the time draws ever closer.

April 2nd isn't as far away as we think. So take your time Toby and get good and ready to come join your family. I love you so much already!!!!!!

Any who I am off to sleep!!!!

Halloween 2014

Another Halloween is in the books for our sweet baby and it was so nice! You started with a Dalmatian outfit, and actually wore a unicorn outfit for your costume. Both were equally adorable.

Prior to this week we got into an accident, but thankfully everyone was okay. You were asleep and it didn't seem to phase you at all. I ended up with a massive headache for 3 days :( Your Daddy has been gone so he wasn't here to come rescue. Thankfully though he was able to see you for a little while on Halloween.

Now, Baby #2 - I wish you would move more so I knew you were okay and you were just moving. However, you are very quiet and I haven't been sick so there are days I worry something may be amiss, but then I pray and there you wiggle. I can't wait to meet you. You are going to have an amazing big sister. Eddison is so amazing and helpful. I love it. She walks into your room and just sits in the floor. It is priceless.

Eddison I want you to know when your sibling arrives that they will love you just as much as your Momma and Daddy do. We are so ready to make our family bigger and welcome another member into the Jacobson clan. It makes my heart leap from my chest knowing we are going to be a family of FOUR soon.

Next Halloween we will have two trick or treaters and it will be so much fun! I love you both to the moon and back. Kisses and hugs my little baby bears!

Rough Days

Days are hard when your Daddy goes on deployment. There are days when I want to simply break down and cry and then I think - pick yourself up, God knows you can handle it.

The day your Daddy left you had a viral infection that caused these red bumps to cover you, you weren't sleeping, and you were CLINGY. We had to stay inside for 5 days and well, that tested me a lot. We were finally allowed out yesterday and man were we both thrilled. We went to Orr Farm, Mathis Brothers, and then to see Great Nana. We did those things with Meme and you were so excited. I know that we both love one another but five days is a long time.

Now, to your sibling... this kiddo is so different from you, Eddison. No heartburn (until like 9pm and it lasts about 5 min), no nausea, and already popping my belly button out. I am really curious to know if peanut is a boy or a girl. I thought we had names, and now I am not sold. We shall see. As of now you are in bed and I am going to enjoy a movie, some ice cream, and well quiet momma time. I love you Bear and you too lil peanut.

Baby 2 & Eddi

It is really starting to sink in I will have two kids under the age of two in 2015! We have been attempting names and I keep telling them to Eddison and wait for her reaction. I have two that I want and love, but we will see what Tim says.

Eddi, you are growing up so quickly now and I wish I could keep you in a time bubble and never let you out. Alas, you have to grow so you can be the best big sister EVER. Today we went to the Zoo and I can tell how you want to be a big girl, and how independent you are. I love you so much. I am so thankful for you.

I pray that when this baby comes you know my love for you is not any less, it is just shared with this new bundle of joy. I pray that you can look at him/her and know that you are the one who will teach them everything they will know. They will look to you for guidance and support. Being a big sister is important and so exciting. You can talk with your Aunt Katie :)

Anyway, I know you are about to wake up so I will sign off.

- Baby 2 - you are 15 weeks today, I have massive headaches, random nausea, and I felt your flutters yesterday. I am so excited to meet you. I love you.

Big Sister

The world now knows about you becoming a big sister. As hard as it was to tell people I am so glad I don't have to hide. I know some are probably thinking - OH MY GOSH YOU JUST HAD EDDISON.... yeah I did. I am excited to think they will be close like Micah, Jack, and I. Granted Katie and I are close but that didn't come until we were older. So those haters can hate!

Anyway, you seem to realize this baby is coming because your routine and the way you are is changing. You are more independent and willing to go without me. (this breaks my heart) You will wave and say bye if you want me to leave. Cute but sad.

So, you are 13 months and your sibling is 13 weeks. Kind of fun to think of it that way. Which is what we did to announce your new sibling coming. It was nice. Tim took the photo. Oh, for those of you reading, Tim does not want to know the gender so we are going to wait until April to find out. I will still do "reveal" photos but one will be boy and one will be girl. Sounds stupid but if Eddi has it then I want the baby to have some too.

I have to say I am not sure I will make it but I am going to try. We will do a 3D ultrasound at around 30 weeks, and if the tech doesn't slip then maybe I will make it. If you wonder why I say it like that, well we are doing a midwife, home birth again. I loved Eddison being born at home and couldn't imagine having this baby anywhere else. If we ever move I know it will be hard for me. This will be the home both my babies were born in. EEK!

The babies room is slowly coming together. I just finished drawing the giraffe for one of the frames. Next is to get Meme out to help  with the safari tree. I think it turned out okay but I pretty much suck at trees so Meme is going to be the saving grace there. I am so excited to have you here. Almost halfway there and it is flying. Oh by the way - the due date is April 2nd, and I think you will arrive on March 27. Let's see what happens. Welp, I am now going to go to bed (yes it is 7:30) because your sister is asleep and well I am completely pooped.

Daddy & Deployments

Your Daddy does a lot for you and I. One of these is leaving on his deployments. When you were teeny tiny they didn't seem to phase you. Now, you notice he is gone,  you walk around the house saying, "Dada" like you are playing hide and seek. Then once you notice he is no where you look at me with the saddest eyes. It truly breaks my heart into a million pieces.

This current trip has been probably the hardest, he is gone, he is home, he is gone... you are so confused and upset. For about three nights you would wake up around 2 or 3 a.m. and scream, "DADA!" and I would have to comfort you. Talk about tearing your mother's heart out. I wanted to cry with you but I knew if I were to do that it would only make matters worse. So there we would sit, rocking, me telling you where he is, and my praying silently that you find peace so you can sleep. You would normally find the sleep and once you woke up it would be the same hide and seek game. However, on the fourth day you seem to understand Daddy will be home soon. The worst is you think I will leave too, so when we go places you cling to me. I don't know how to express to you that I don't have to leave, that because of what he does I get to stay with you.

Never would I have imagined it being this hard. I went through this while your Daddy and I dated
and it was hard, but not like it is now. To see you cry, and hurt makes me break in two. Daddy knows how hard it is on us, I can only imagine how hard it is on him. Eddison you need to know he does this so I can stay at home with you, so we can live the life we live, so we can be a family. I know as you get older and the more he goes it won't seem to be different. I want you to know that with each day he is gone is a day we can be thankful, a day we can feel blessed; then the day he returns we will celebrate, cry, and just be a family again. Those are the days when you run to him and say, "Dada" and smile and just stare at him. Those are the days I feel whole again. Those are the days I am most thankful for.

One year down

I may be a few days shy of your 12 month, one year old, toddler post but can you blame me? You are no longer my tiny baby girl. There is so much that has happened in the past twelve months that I could not put it all into one post. Needless to say it has been a roller coaster of emotions. As I look at the little lady you are today and compare to the tiny infant you were I am speechless. How does someone change so much?

You are completely independent, you are a go-getter, you love to eat, you love to smile, wave, and enjoy each day. Yes, you cry and some days I want to lock myself in a room just for quiet, but those are few days. I was asked the other day my favorite stage. I had such a hard time picking one.
I loved each first you had, I loved you crawling, you waving, you walking.... I have to say my favorite time is all of them. Each day when you learn something new your face lights up and you look at me like, "DID YOU SEE THAT?" and I can't help but grin.



Speaking of a first you climbed - on to a bed. I am in awe of you. When you got to the top you just smiled and made this squeal and it was a look of sweet success. You finally did it.

So, happy one year, happy life, and here is to many many more amazing days spent with you.

Such Emotion

This week is hard. The simple fact my baby is going to be a toddler brings me to tears. How has this year flown past me? Did I miss anything? Have I done the 1st year right?

I look at you and all I see is perfection. Your blonde wispy hair, your stunning blue eyes, that goofy grin all equal my Eddison. I have had the best year with you. I am beyond thankful I was able to spend it with you, by your side, laying on the floor, road tripping, and just goofing around.



I keep thinking back to my teenage years when I thought I wanted to live in NYC, in a loft, with cats, being single....how little did I know. Today I look at my life and see it is exactly where I am supposed to be. In Oklahoma, married, with a daughter, and yep - still have the cats! Getting married changed my life, having you changed my world.

Eddison if ever you have a child I pray you can look upon that tiny face and see the blessing and miracles God gives us. I pray you see the wonderful creation God made for you. I pray that you are filled with a love so consuming at times you feel like you can't breathe. That my sweet daughter is what I feel when I look at you. I love you.

11 Months and Surprise Visits

You turned 11 months and Daddy came home for a surprise visit....

Pretty sure today took the cake on your month birthday's. When Daddy walked through the door your eyes lit up and you screamed :)

I think your Daddy fell even more in love with you. (Didn't know that was even possible)

We didn't do a lot of celebrating, but we did help your Meme move classrooms so when school starts she will be ready.

We also found your dress for the birthday party and pictures. I have to alter it a little bit but you look like a toy doll.

I love you so much. You are currently running under the desk and playing with some old cameras. It is adorable. We have one more month and you turn one. This will be a busy month.

I love you, Daddy loves you and we are so blessed to call you our daughter.

Time Goes so Quickly

Tomorrow you are 11 months. One month from being a year old. I don't know how this happened so fast. I at times want to hit the stop button but watching you grow is so amazing. You are so smart. I can show you something once and you have it down. It is simply awe-inspiring.

You managed to go both on a boat and a train within the same month. You FINALLY say, "momma." Which you say all the time. Melts my heart when your tiny voice says it. I can't imagine what you will be like a year from now. I am sure you will chatter all day every day. (no complaints if so)

Today we went to the Children's Museum in Seminole. You would walk up and down this ramp and squeal with delight that you weren't falling. It was adorable. There were so many people in awe that you were so tiny and walking. I couldn't have been prouder.

I guess tomorrow I will simply post your photo since I am rambling tonight. But Eddison - know that your momma loves you soooooooooooo much.

Oh What The Future Holds

We have had a great day today. We played a lot, outside, inside, in the closets, etc. I enjoy these moments so much. I know there are times I think I should just go back to work, but it is days like today that make me beyond thankful we are able to have me at home with you.

I look at you and as you turn to me an smile my heart melts. You little bear have changed my life in so many ways. I am beyond blessed to have you. Your Daddy will be leaving again this weekend and it breaks my heart he has to leave you. I know there is no way I would be able to leave for weeks at a time. When he comes home it is like meeting a new little person because you change so often.

Today I took a photo of you with my wedding dress. I almost cried because I can only imagine you telling me, "Momma, I am getting married." The joy I see in your eyes as you sat and played with my dress will be there the day you walk to marry the man of your dreams. I remember walking to your Daddy like it was yesterday. I walked with your Papa and wow. Your Daddy and you won't be able to hold the tears back.

Eddison I pray you are lucky enough to meet someone as amazing as your Daddy, he is a keeper and I thank God daily for bringing him to me.

Well now that I am all teary eyed.... I will go back to cleaning the house while you snooze. I love you Eddi Bear...

oh ps... we did get to do it. We are a minivan family!!!!!!

10 Months and sooo much more

Baby girl you are 10 months, you walk, you jibber all the time, you melt my heart every time you smile, and you are simply amazing.

Your dad was home when you really started the walk, but today - well you just let go and take off. I am betting within a week or more you will be sprinting! I am a little nervous and excited by that statement. I can not believe you are almost a year old. I feel like I should start planning your birthday party and getting everything ready. EEEK!

Anyway, you got to see your Tenn family again. Poppie (was Papa) turned 60 and they all came out for the fun. You sure showed them how much you changed in a few weeks. You are my little shining star Eddi.

There is something else that may take place but I am keeping it in wraps until we know for sure if they can happen.... I know if it can happen you will be soooo excited. Mainly the point is you will smile when we tell you just because you smile all the time, and hopefully you will really be excited. Who knows.

Well, I am sure I could ramble for an hour but I won't. Instead I shall leave you with your 10 month photo.

Walking!!!

You already took steps but they were all janky. Last night around 10pm (you should have been sleeping) you decided it was time to walk. 

You are SO cute when you walk. It looks like a side to side wobbly. I am so beyond proud and so thankful your Daddy was there to see it. I was worried he would be gone on his deployment already. Guess what - he just got called in so you did beat his deployment! 

Here is the video I got of you walking. Proud parents Eddison. 

9 Months!

Wow! To think you have been in my life the same amount of time in my belly is amazing. You are the best thing that has happened to me, and I am so blessed to be your momma.

This month has been jam packed with awesome things. 1. Your daddy is home and was baptized! It was so beautiful. You ended up getting sick towards the end but we made it out and are thankful for the Lord's blessings. 2. You did a 12 hour car ride! We went to St. Louis, Meramec Caves, Maryland, D.C., and a day later went to Tennessee. 3. You met Uncle Nick, Aunt Crea, Jorja, Talon, Glenda, and Aunt Rainey. Pretty sure they are totally in love. Talon is sooo cute, and Jorja enjoyed spending time with you.

Also, you said, "bye, bye" and you waved while doing it. You took 5 steps, you high five, and well let's just say I don't have any idea what more you can accomplish. You are an achiever and it amazes me how quickly you do everything.

While we were on vacation you got to see a lot of new places, you now have 7 teeth, and you ate a lot of new foods. Aunt Crea was able to get you to eat ham and turkey. I was so excited by that. Anywho, you are about to wake up from nap time. I love you sweet bear.

8 months

I remember being 8 months pregnant and being so nervous/excited that you would be here soon. It makes it hard to comprehend you are here and have been for 8 months. These 16 months of pregnancy and having you are the best months of my life. You have completed my life in so many ways.

I was thinking about how my life before was simply work, home, sleep, repeat. I am so glad it has changed. I get to wake up with you, I get to put you to bed, and I spend the day with you teaching you. Another great thing is I have been reading the Bible. As I read I think of how I get to teach you things not based on hearsay but on what I have read and learned, and the things I have witnessed. That is the greatest gift I can ever give you.

So, my little 8 month beauty. You spent the day crying because your tooth hasn't broke, you got to see your cousins, aunt, Meme, Great Nana, and Great Uncle Victor. You had a good day I think. You fell asleep early, and you slept rather nicely. I love you so my sweet baby.

Happy 8 months to you!!!!!

Eddi's First Easter

Early morning for the both of us. You were awake before 7am, so we hung out and I gave you your Easter basket. First impression was well... you made a face. :) Later you decided that eating the tissue in the basket was the best thing. Once we got all ready for the day we headed off for church.

Little Miss Eddi; when you have a daughter or son I pray they take naps better than you. I say this with complete honesty. You used to be fantastic then out of no where you won't close your eyes. I get sad, upset, and cranky, but I have to realize you are an infant and you are BUSY! Yesterday you took a total of 1 hour in naps. (2 - 30 min ones) Then you didn't go to sleep until 9 pm and were up a lot. I think you were over worked.

I mean it is now 10:30 and you are sleeping but it took a while to get you there. Word of advice - if your child even appears sleepy - get them to bed ASAP. The longer I wait to get you to sleep the worse it is to get you to close your eyes. Anyway, totally went off the Easter train haha. I digress.

After church we went to Meme and Papa's and were there a long time. The only nap you took was when it was time to hunt eggs. Needless to say you missed that part. It was fun though, we had all the family (minus your Daddy) there and man were you active. You crawled, attempted walking, and ate everything you could. It was pretty awesome. You also had fun with Kora and Dawson. Parker went fishing so you didn't hang out with him much.


We finally headed home and let me tell you this - if you do marry military prepare for that lonely sick feeling. It will hit you when you least expect it. When we got home; it hit.

Anyway, in two days you will be 8 months old. I can't believe it. I still double check to make sure that is right. It seems like you were being named yesterday. Soon you will be a year old and then I will cry and cry. The upside, your personality is starting to truly come through and omg you are awesome!!!! Always smiling, looking around, taking things in, and you giggle a lot. It makes me so happy to be your momma. You are going to light up the world when you get older.

Remember that the best things in life are faith, family, and love and know that I will always love you. Here is to your first Easter and the many memories you made during the special day.

Loves and kisses my Eddi Bear!

Teethers and Crawling

Well little miss; you now have 2 teeth - one on top and one on the bottom. You can CRAWL. You wave and you know the difference between hello and bye bye.

I hate that your Daddy is away during all of these firsts. I love that I am able to experience them though. You change daily and it amazes me how smart you are. There are days that I break down because I feel so overwhelmed being the "single mom" while Daddy is gone. Then you will smile at me and it all fades away.

Eddison I want you to know that being a momma is not the easiest thing to do, but it is the greatest thing you will ever do. You will have moments of pure defeat, moments of pure joy, and moments of pure confusion. In each one you will learn something new about yourself. You will find a strength you never knew and you will be in awe at what you can achieve. I pray that you will get to experience the joy of being a mother. OR of being an aunt. They both are so rewarding and so inspiring.

I love you my little angel. I want you to know how amazing you are, I want you to know how much I enjoy being your mother. I want you to know how loved you are. Never will there be a day I don't tell you I love you. I know I may become disappointed in you but that won't mean I don't love you.

You are going to be such an amazing woman. I know that God is in you already and that you will be close to him and the faith that I sit and cry at the fact you are mine. I pray I can be a guide to you and can show you the strength and wonders of the spirit. If ever you have a question I don't want you to hesitate to come and ask.

--- I will try to get a photo of your teeth and then I will post a video of you crawling. I love you Eddi Bear.

Pickles, Deployment, and Trips

We are on our way to another month without Daddy. It isn't something I enjoy, but I know he has to do it. Hopefully one day we will be able to take a long vacation and go somewhere amazing. Just us.

I was actually thinking about your first birthday. It is a week before Labor Day - maybe we can go camping? I remember going when I was younger and I loved it so much. I want you to love the outdoors and to experience as much as you can.

This makes me think of you and food. You try it all and you seem to love it all. You may make a face at first but you keep on. This was so with PICKLES. Daddy hates them. I love them. You enjoyed them. Your faces were so cute. You would make this look like what?! then you would put it back in your mouth and keep going. It was priceless.

Anyway, since your Daddy is going to leave I was thinking of us taking a trip to Tahoka for a weekend. I feel like we need to go and I truly miss everyone there. Who knows maybe this is God's plan and something amazing is waiting for us. I am just worried about the 6 hour drive. You are great in the car for a while, then you want out. Kinda like being held. You are fine until you want to walk and move. Then by George you better let her go!!! However, I think if we were to leave late at night you would probably sleep most the way. So--- that is the plan.

I can't think of much more that has happened. Just know that I love you unconditionally and am so blessed to be your momma. Can't wait to hear your first word, see you crawl, walk...etc. Love you Eddi Bear.

7 Months

It is so hard to believe you are already 7 months old. I remember the morning I woke with contractions. It doesn't seem like that was 7 months ago. That is something I don't think I will ever forget. Then the knowledge that today is the day I would meet you. Talk about determination and excitement.

So much has changed in my life, your Daddy's, and yours. I don't work, Daddy is deploying, and you - you change daily. You are so close to crawling and walking; I wake up every morning thinking today is the day. I am so proud of what you do accomplish. For example, you can wave and you are attempting to clap.

The wave thing is rather adorable. You for a while would only wave at yourself in the mirror. I would laugh so hard. If we were to walk past a mirror you would straighten up and look and then wave. You finally got the whole wave at a person when they wave back down (perfectly) about two days ago. You waved at a stranger when they said hello.

There are some things that make me giggle. You LOVE food. I mean all food. I can give you anything and you are always willing to try and normally you just enjoy it. The only items I have ever seen you not like (but still eat) are guacamole and french fries. You got your first fry (from your daddy) yesterday. You took a bite then you decided you did not want anything to do with it. You then continued to eat your puffs and "talk".

The biggest challenge for me is when your Daddy leaves. I get to do the single momma thing. I just thank God I do not have to go to work on top of it. Granted there are days I think it would be easier to just go to work, but then I think of all the new things I would miss out on. So not worth it.

I have to say you are simply beautiful. You are always smiling, always curious, and constantly busy. You went to the dentist with me and were so happy the whole time, you walked around the office with one of the dentists, you just amaze me.

Well, I guess I should sign off and get us ready for the day. You were up all night off and on. There is another tooth that is coming in. I wish, at times, they would all just come through at once. But, what would be the fun in that?! I love you my Eddi Bear. I am so blessed to be your momma and I can't wait to see what you become. Love you, Love you, LOVE YOU!

TOOTH!

You got your first tooth today!

I have to say I was not the one to know it came. Micah and Meme had you in church and they said they heard the click on the peppermint candy and thought why didn't Rina tell us. I didn't because I had no idea it finally broke. So - CONGRATS lil Miss. Eddi. You are the proud owner of your first tooth.

6 Wonderful Months

I know I am about a week late - oops. Within this week you have started swimming lessons and you have done so many other amazing things. You are pulling up on EVERYTHING. You are actually attempting to crawl. (it is more of a bear crawl though) You have started eating baby food twice a day. Fruits for lunch and Veggies for dinner. You seem to like that idea the best. You eat like your Momma. All foods are good and nothing is bad. The only thing you have ever made a stink face about has been guacamole and the banana orange medley baby food. I don't blame you on the guac. I am not a fan of the stuff either. Your favorite thing to eat is actually the squash. Well, Momma milk then that. Also, today we added some supplement formula to lunch time so that you become accustomed to the taste. This makes me sad because I feel as though I am losing the, "Momma, I need you" status. 

Speaking of this change in taste etc., we ran into a nice family while we were at your swimming lessons and they said a big bottle before bed will help you sleep longer. I am excited and sad that there is a chance you won't be waking up at night needing me. I can honestly say there are times I want to just ignore the cries, but once I wake up and you look at me it is all worth the late hours. That is our time together and I would never trade that. Daddy says I need the sleep though - so for Daddy we will try this out for a week and see what happens. If you like it than we will do it. Remember no matter what I love you. Now, moving on to the fact you had your FIRST swimming lesson - your FIRST time in a pool - and the FIRST time to float in the water. You LOVED it and Momma and Daddy were beyond proud of you and your skills. The actual lesson was more of getting you acquainted with the water but you are a little swimmer already. You kick and tread the water like you have done it before. While some babies were getting upset you simply wanted to play and hang out. Makes sense since you love the bath. This my sweet daughter is a trait from your father. I suck at swimming and honestly prefer to be outside the water. I am thankful you are more like Daddy in this than me. I sink to the bottom and have never truly enjoyed the swimming process. 

We also went to the zoo and you were so alert and ready to see all the animals. We even bought you some sunglasses. You don't like those so much, but you were a champ and you wore them for your Momma and Daddy. We even ran into some family members while we were there. It was a great day for the Jacobson crew. I think the part you liked best was the elephant show. You were on Daddy's shoulders and watched it from up high until it was over. Smiles and giggles the whole time.  Eddison you are such and observant baby. You learn daily and you seem to become smarter, stronger, and more amazing. I am blessed to be your momma. I thank God for the little person he gave us. We are beyond proud of you. Two years of marriage and it became complete when you entered the equation.

Swimming Season is Coming - Daddy is Home

Swimming Gear

You are going to start swimming lessons. I had no idea you could do that so early but I am excited. Since we have a pool I would like you to learn how to swim correctly and safely. We went and bought you a swim suit yesterday. Oh my wow! You are so cute. It makes me smile to just think about it.

The classes are at the YMCA and both Momma and Daddy will be there. They say it is more of a way  to get you comfortable with the water and then you progress to the next level, etc. I know you love the water already because of bath time. You could sit in the water for an hour and it not phase you. That Eddi is your Daddy in you. Momma likes the weather to be HOT and the water to be warm.... so when bath water gets a little chilly I get out. You and your Daddy would stay in no matter what.

Daddy and you taking an afternoon nap

Now the best news of the week - YOUR DADDY IS HOME FROM DEPLOYMENT!!! He was a little upset because he went to get you when you woke up (he got in around 11pm) and you were so upset because you weren't sure who he was. It broke my heart for him. Thankfully by the morning you were thrilled to see him. I know nighttime everything is hard to see.

Seeing you and your Daddy together makes my heart burst. He loves you so much it is so evident on his face when he looks at you; and when you look at him your eyes light up like it is Christmas morning. It is beautiful. He has wanted to hold you, rock you to sleep, play with you, etc. all the time since he has been back. He keeps telling me how much you have grown and changed. I honestly don't see that much of a change but I am with you 24/7. For that reason, I have to wrap my head around the fact he was unable to be with you for 3 weeks and only able to SKYPE about six days. I could not even begin to imagine being away from you and him with those circumstances. Thankfully photos were exchanged repeatedly.

Well my sweet Eddi Bear - I am going to sign off. In two days you are 6 months old. Time is flying by and with each day I am more and more blessed to be your Momma. I love you so much.

Be My Valentine

Happy Valentines Day!

Eddison this is your first year for Valentine's Day. As you know we learned it isn't about the gifts, but about showing those you love - how much you love them.
Also, your Daddy was away but Mommy's friends Jessica and Taylor came from Texas so we had dinner with them at IHOP! It was a lot of fun. You ate carrots and a sweet old man asked if you would be his Valentine.











Earlier that day we went to Starbucks and we saw your 2nd cousin Janiece, had coffee with Erin, and saw your Uncle Josh. It was a good day. We did miss Daddy but sent him photos so he could see you. He told me that you were the most beautiful baby ever. I had to agree. You are simply adorable.

In these few short weeks you have accomplished so many things and I know that there are many more to come... but wow. You leave me speechless. I can't imagine how you could get more amazing than you already are. But, you show me every day a new amazing thing.

Our next milestone is you turning 6 months old. It is so hard to believe you are already that big. Oh, but you are amazing. The things you can do, what you try to do.... They take my breath away.

The photos you see were taken in your bedroom. Gosh you are such a sweetie. I guess I will quit writing seeing as your 6 month blog post is coming and I need to leave something in there.

I love you dearly my sweet Eddi Bear. Happy Valentines Day and I pray you know how much you are truly loved.

Time is Short

I notice I have been behind in your blog. You are 5+ months, your daddy is deployed, Momma is working by making baby things.... let's just say we are a bit busy in the Jacobson household.

But - you are 5 months and I did NOT forget to get a photo! See I remembered this! It is amazing the things you can do and how much you have already changed since I took this photo. You are a GO-GO girl. Non stop movement from the moment your eyes open. Keeps me on my toes.
Since the photo you have decided to start to "crawl". You get your arms straight but your little legs won't stay in the crawl position. Instead you tip-toe while in the crawl position. Honestly, I believe you would rather walk and stand than that whole crawl scenario. I sure do love you.

The other night I was singing a different tune. And if any mother says they have not had a moment where they would want to ship their child off they are lying or it just hasn't happened yet. You woke up at about 1am and screamed, arched back, arms flying for over an hour. I had to sit you down because I was so worried I would shake you because I was so upset. Nothing I did helped. I tried to nurse, changed your diaper, rubbed your tummy, rocked you, walked with you... nothing. I finally put you on the couch and hit my knees asking God to help me because I was so worried and upset. I sat there listening to you scream while I cried sobbed. About 3 minutes later I picked you up and you were so calm. I thank God for hearing my prayer. Following that you slept for 2.5 hours. (not normal for you)

Eddison - lesson for when you have a child. Patience and prayer go hand in hand. Without one you do not stand a chance. Babies are beautiful blessings and I would not change having you for anything. However, there are moments Eddi where you will need to step back and reflect. You will need to sit and remember what a blessing that baby screaming is. You do that with patience and prayer. Funny I am learning this along with not taking your daddy for granted.

So, another lesson. Your husband - cherish the moments you have. Always say I love you, and never ever think twice about showing him you care. Your daddy was home with us for over a month (non-stop) and since he has left I realize how amazing he was. I am sure I never told him that while he was sitting with us. I pray that your daddy knows how I love him. I pray that he knows how amazing I think he is. Eddi tell the person your love how much you love them daily. We are not granted tomorrow and for that we should never pass up the opportunity to share our emotions with those around us.

Now that I am crying... I will tend to you. By the way, you are currently sleeping soundly because Meme came over and you were awake 2+ hours straight and you are TIRED. Also, your Meme is pretty amazing... as is your Papa. You have such an amazing group of family around you. Never take them for granted. Love you my Eddi Bear.

Growing Up

You seem to be growing so quickly. I catch myself thinking SLOW DOWN all the time. Yesterday while we were learning & playing you stood by yourself for about 10 minutes. I was so impressed but sad at the same time. You are only 20 weeks old. At the same time I am beyond thankful I am home with you to witness these things. Granted there are times when I think I should have tried it a little longer (the working gig), but then you smile at me, you sit up, or you smile and there is no where else I would rather be. I know money may get tight at times but we can make it and it is worth the struggle. 

I guess as I write this I feel as though I should explain what I mean a little more. If I were working I would be bringing in money... however, I would be 10 hrs a day away from you, sitting at a desk, pumping every 3 hrs, and missing you. I would have no idea what you were doing, I would sit and stare and think of all the moments I am missing out on. It was not worth it. I gave it two weeks - started another job gave that 2 weeks and realized NOTHING in this world is worth not being with you. So, yes... I do not bring in money, yes I am a stay at home mom, and YES I love every single second I have. I love all the worry that may come from money because it means that is another day I am spending with you. It is another day I am not sitting at a desk missing my beautiful daughter. 

As you grow and one day have a child of your own I pray you make the choice that fits you and your family. I wanted to be a working mom. That was before I had you. I thank God we have the opportunity to allow myself to stay home. I thank God for a husband who supports me in this, a family who says good for you, and a home in which I can do it from. 

Now on to you growing up. You officially eat baby cereal. It is mixed with mommas milk but wow you sure love the stuff. If we stop to let you take a break you get so upset. We even moved into adding some baby food because it seems milk is not enough any more. (That is also bittersweet) So yesterday you had some sweet potatoes. Oh did you chow down on those. Your daddy was so excited you liked them. That is one of his favorite things to eat. You are a pretty good eater too. You don't spit it back like I thought you would. Instead you sit there and chew on the spoon until the food is cleaned off. It is adorable. Speaking of the spoon - that is one of your newest favorite things to hold. You grab it and try to stick it in your mouth. It is so cute. You look like a big girl when you do it too. The video is the cereal you were eating. We call you our little shark. You come at it with such gusto that it is like a baby shark going for its first meal. 

Well my sweet baby, I guess it is time to say goodbye. I am trying to prepare our household for when your daddy deploys (in a few weeks) and it seems to be hard to do. More so mentally than physically. I keep telling Daddy to spend as much time as he can with you because soon he will be gone. I promise daily to skype him so we can see him! Welp, you just woke up. I love you!

New Year - 2014

Happy New Year from the Jacobson's! 


We spent it with some great friends at the house. Amazingly all adults were awake when the ball dropped. It was nice having good company, our little girl, and their children in our home. This was the 3rd year for us to host a New Years party. Every year seems to get even better and better.

The best part was you slept until 5am! You haven't been sleeping that long in a while. I was thrilled. However, the next day you ended up with a runny nose, runny eyes, and a little sneeze. Thankfully it is already gone and you are your happy self once more.

Now, on to what New Years means. Resolutions. I know you are to tiny to make any and I thought of making mine known to you. I want you to know this.... majority of the population goes to a healthy me mode. You - Eddison - need to know that no matter what you look like, the size of your clothes, or how much you weighs should ever make you think less of yourself. You are INSIDE AND OUT beautiful. You are so amazing and so smart. I don't want you to get sucked into the "right" way a woman should look based on society. I want you to decide for yourself what true beauty is. I say this because I caught myself saying, "I promise to lose weight and look better." Wrong. I am beautiful.

I may weigh a little more, I may have stretch marks, and my bottom may not be as toned as it was - but I am a beautiful woman with a beautiful body. I want to teach you to love your body. To hold it as something sacred. Protect it with all you have and treat it with kindness.

I do apologize if you are reading this and you are in the dumps about your looks and if that is due to me. I never want to make you feel like less of a woman. I want you to know I am your biggest fan. I love you.